-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.
Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
+ zazooosg@hotmail.com
+ 08/10/1989
+ Libra
Thursday, July 06, 2006
_______SumtimeTheBestThingInLifeAin'tTheNicestThing__________
Back to blog again....
nothing much to say bout today juz another typical day...
nothings change....same routine like last week and the week be4.....
come to sch bout 9.45...hahaz this time i wasn't late.....
went for eltech class.....and GOD!!! i'm really startking to hit a wall in this subject....
hmmm better head home to revise liao....toking bout subject....
haiz sumtin sad happen today....the NRC(Navy Recruitment Centre) Called during lunch....
i looked at the number and tot it was gonna be good news....
but they say..."william, when is ur end of semester exams?"i replied... and they say"william becoz of ur olevel result i cant bring ya in"....
my hopes totally shattered again..... but this time at least they say ...u'll be getting ur result in oct rite... when u get them fax it to me, sgt david...they say i need an average GPA of 2.5....so far mine results are pretty okie...got to work hard liao......
back to sch....today after maths... suddenly kenneth suggested that the whole class pon class....my first tot was... Wad The!!! i stood my ground inist that i head for class wif RH....comon i need the results okie....not becoz i need the diploma for a gd job....but becoz i'm going thru some hard times, my family and me...and well one other way to solve the prob is to do well...i head for class... and guess wad they all turned up... LOLanyway glad they did....we did a web test today... and my results was 85.4% wasn't quite satisfied....but i'm okie... wif it....k gues thats today lol now i'm juz killing time blogging in the library wif some of the class in the room...i look at th room... its too small to fit everyone... so i decided to stay outside...rather than stay in there to occupy the space...
sumtime i really wondered wads my purpose here on earth.....
i'm going thru so much things....its draining on my mind... to some point that i really feel like giving up totally on life....
its not me to give up but then the odds are stacked against me.....
its time i stopped...take a step back....(like how i always tell people) and look at the bigger picture....then sort things out.....my studies is having some problems now....
my social life is also not going as well as i tot it was....
and back home... though everything look okie... but i noe and i can sensed that things aren't going well mostly...
.even though everything is not well.... i'm sure theres others worst than me...
i Will not let this be an obsticle in my reign in LIfe.....so sumtimes when u think life aint good for u... think! is it really that bad?
all i ever wanted is juz people who care.... not those that care only when ur of use to them....its like frens where u can trust... frens where they noe u so well that even a little change they notice....
i'm not the attention seeker kind.... but i cant live without social life.... forget it... why am i even writing this? i'm n ot trying to gain sympathy.... even if my life sux to the core... i alone will carry it on my shoulder...coz only i noe myself best.....i think i'm gonna stop here... coz ......i've been crapping bout the same thing so many time and i still donno wad i'm trying to find or wad i'm saying.....
maybe in time i will understand......
2:12 AM
