-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Disappointment a part of me?_

hey bloggy its been awhile...got miss me?
hahaz anyway heres to update abit....
hmmm well continue from last post...
on the sat i went ubin wif JQ,derrick and joyce...met xiang xiang at changi village =) hmmm did i get her name rite?
okok anyway we went ubin to cycle and nitewalk hahaz it was fun...
i think it was actuclly to help wif their project or sumtin...
anyway we reach ubin...rent bikes...head over to the thai temple there then cycle offroads
hahaz my fav...
we one thing me and derrick agreed... even on wheels they are slow hahahz...think even joyce and xiang xiang faster loh
hmmm then towards the evening we cooked maggi mee lol well it was nice sumhow
okok then we head over to nitewalk...
actuclly was me derrick, jq and his nature loving fren =) well i'm a quite nature guy too hahahaz...
spotted a couple of things lol like JQ fav...the giant termites hahahz
hmmm there was also spotted tree owl
and i learned bout many herbs and plants =)
thx guys i really enjoyed the day hehe
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anyway now bout today.... haiz it was damn crappy lah....
i suck at teaching... i suck at doing tests....
wonder wad i'm good for anyway....
did so much trying to work hard for OS
and in the end i forgot so many thing and even did not finish the paper....left the entire last page blank....
worst was out of all the people i helped out wif....
all of them had problem wif the paper....
maybe i shldn't haf act smart teach them...
donno why i really feel its partly my fault
donna lah....
haiz... i always tell myself to be the best... but till now... haf i ever become one?
haiz nvm enuff bout the test...
my sincre apology to wenqi and shuxian andy anyone who put hope in me to help them wif os...
maybe i'm not who u all think i am....

haiz... life is full of hardships...
its inevitable...
and that sux....
but well no pain no gain rite....
but sumtimes the pain is so servre....
it can really bring a person down....
me? i'm getting numb of it leh
from the past... i expirence losing a bestfren...when u care for sumone and the sumone forgets u...even though u remembered them always...
expirence losing someone whom u think is the one and u gave all ya heart, ya love and ya commitment to...only to find out it was a a lie....
expirence the hardships of finacial crisis....am still now... hopefully the plans i lay out will work and it shld lighten the burden on my parents...
sumtimes i really doubt if the people who calls me fren... really treats me like one?
well usually they call u when they need help...only...
anyway the only main thing that is pushing me on is knowing that there are still people who really care for me people who really treats me like a fren....
okok vnm ... seriously now i donno wth i'm toking about liao....
haiz i juz wanna lay back blast my musics and run away from all my tots... or numb myself wif tons of games to occupy my mind... i'm sick in the mind, body and soul....
sick of all this and sick of trying to figure wads my prob and why....
i'm juz too tired to care...juz gonna do wad i need to do... and get over wif it....
haiz...now i do partly agree wif one of my sec sch fren... life sux....
signing off
weird disappointed donno wad the hell is going on turtle/whale
william

10:35 AM