-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Love Is Cruel...But Without It The Worlds' Not Worth Living___

its the 25 of oct 1.21 pm...
2 more days till the due date of my submission of my
JPSDS sureties form....
gonna go sign the contract on 30th of oct...
happy but then...
by 17th of nov... i need reduce my BMI to 24...
lol stress challenge man...
hopefully i make it...
okie enuff bout that....

anyway...yesterday erm...well monday to be exect...
since tuesday is a public holiday...
after training we went out to eat...(well we went further lol)
went caserina curry i think(correct me if i'm wrong)
i had vegetable mutabak and a can of greentea
well the food there was not bad =)
ya all shld go try
chat alot there... then suddenly we were toking bout jay lol
and beesim was making this face wif the leftover food...
hahaz
alot of crap lol well thats shows we ninja not onli serious when training...
we too haf a lame and funny side....
okok after that we send dawn home... then me and derrick
and of coz quan...
went to drive arnd sg in search of places to explore...
we went to this place...near tampines i think(quan argh wad place was it again?)
lol some untouched place...
so there we go exploring lol went deeper and deeper...
but sadly there wasn't much to see...
but oh well its nice to see this places once in a while =)
we stambled into this quite broken down place...
to many of u mordern kids... seeing this kind of place already spooked u all out liao...
hahaz
okie we were about to go closer... suddenly alot dogs start barking... then we turned back...
not that we';r scared of dogs...but we dun wanna get charge for tresspassing....
hehe we ignored a sign and a gate on our way in LOL
okok after that quan send me home....

today went sch for training....
did alot lame things... donno if i shld upload the pics hahaz
sure LMAO....
mah maybe next time bahx hahaz i shall save the details...
...

haiz recently been quite emo everynite....
maybe juz alot things in my head bahx....
well seeing wad i been thru since the past... i'm quite expandable...
so such stress shld be alrite i guess
not that i experience alot juz i think i can handle them...
thinking alot of crap....
all the things happening arnd me....
well partly thx to0 training... i use it to destress
hmmm shortly saying....
my life aint going that well... but at the same time... i shldn't complaint much
coz it aint as bad as some people i noe...
its juz so unfair sumtime....
some people whos got everything cant appreciate wad they haf...
recently been thinking bout a certain someone....
my friendship wif her aint bad....
=) if u noe u the person i'm refering...
do noe that i'm always here if u need me...
and ya can trust me de...(its okie even if u dun...its okie de)
anyway... juz some queastion i'm dieing to noe... even though the answer makes no difference..
juz no matter wad the out come or wad the answer may be...
frens we'll always be... and i'm always here
and to a certain someone... if u ever upset her ever again... i wont forgive u nor will i let u off de...
its already bad enuff u did so much to hurt people feeling...
if u read this and noe i'm refering to u...
heres a note...
angry?depress?upset?disappointed wif me?...gues wad... i'm not interested...
if u haf anything against me... or anything against wad i say...
come find me...though i dun like annoying trouble....
but if trouble finds me i'm ready for it...
i shall not bother or care bout u or wad u do....
but if u lay a finger on anyone close to me... or offend me wif any of ur crap again...
an eye for an eye i wont let u off that easily...

this semester... i will stay strong... fighting spirit and determination...
not onli will i work hard to proof that i dun need answer scripts to get A...
its not gonna be easy but i will try...
physically i wan to improve myself...too
flexibility,strength,reflex and stamina....
hard work, no pain no gain...
as for other aspect like love.. i wont write it out here... rather write it in a book that no one else reads...
actions speaks louder than words...
no point me writing long poems here...
it will onli bring stress to ur mind and the person...
it takes 2 hands to clap...
decision is not up to one person....
one muz learn to understand and feel wad the other is feeling or going thru...
respect their decisions...
no point sayin u will wait and all that....
i believe in being there for the person be it for love /like or juz frenship
theres many thing i dun understand about this aspect of life...
all i noe is wad is morally rite and wrong...
and that every action one person do has consequences...
yes i would like it if the person accept me...
but its not me who makes such decisions...
but it is for me to respect that decision..
if the decision she make is wad she wan...
than i shall be happy for her...
as long as frens we still are...
her smile and laughter will still brighten my day =)

stay happy always... and stay true to urself always
i shall end my crap hahaz... covered pretty long one today hahaz
anyway...

wif love...
ur fren...
classmate...
member...
turtle...

william

10:27 AM