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Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Life is a beri complex thing....treasure it..._

hey its been awhile since i last update...
dun worry i'll fill in those parts that i miss out somehow...
anyway in general... things are getting tougher and tougher liao...
both physically and mentally...
and well the stress in on....
navy signed on liao... mean i'm bound by contract...
so i better make it this time...
been thinking alot lately...
loads of queastion poping in my head...
queastions like wad the hell am i living in this world for?
wads my purpose?
am i who i think i am to my frens arnd me?
etc etc....
thers still sumtin in my life that i haf not found or haf left behind... that i cant find...
and i dun noe wad it is...
come to think of it... its months since i last saw my bros from sec/ pri sch...
guys and gals i really miss ya all alot...
lately been digging out old pictures...
juz looking at them... gives me back memories... of my past..
the past that will nv happen again...
the things we'v been thru togather...
ya noe... pictures are sumtin that i like and treasure beri much...
becoz it has this thing of making sumtin or a moment freeze and last forever...
looking at all the pics... really makes me feel both sad and happy at the same time...
well at moments like this when ya actuclly stop to look at them...
ya start to figure that life is rather short... and at the same time...
beri fast...
if i could i wish to stay in all the happy memories of my life and that time freeze...
okie enuff bout the pics liao...

recently in class..
been feeling a little down...
well not becoz anything happen...
juz well maybe i'm juz too tired...
well sumtimes i begin to wonder.. wad am i worth in the eye of my frens and peers?
people dun turn to me... neither can i turn to anyone much when trouble arise..
well theres those i noe i could always trust...
really appreciate them...
...
hahaz well if onli i could see wad people feel...
then i can noe wad am i worth in the eye of others..
tell ya the truth...
my life is a mess..
and i'm really beri stabborn and dumb..
hahaz
i shld try go to class... being anti...juz sit there mind my own business and speak when i need to...

okie nvm...
common test coming liao... peeps
JIA YOU!!!
and of coz qing duo duo qing jiao
hahaz teach me also wor!!
dun pangseh and leave me behind..

today theres 2 test...
one math and one FOOP mork test...
math i think i totally flung it liao...
haiz i better buck up...
FOOP well wasn't too bad...
partly thx to kanwei and RH and the rest of ya... to help me further understand the module..
then also NJD participated red camp...
it rained and the place flooded...
moved to convention centre...
did some demos and meets some people both good and bad...
some were cute... some were ok... and some was... GUAI LAN!!
wth loh ya white belt aikido and worst not even in ngee ann yet... come di siao...
pls... i true martial artist... dun seek to compare which art is best...
they seek to master wad they prefered and push it to the limits...
a teakwando master can say his good at kick... but then if lack the practice he can lose to anyother arts juz as easy...
in a fight... everything comes down to the split seconds....
its all this little training and pushing of limits that give them that split second advantage...
the way ya say things i really doubt u noe shit bout martial arts... and i really doubt u noe aikido.
so my advice... STFU!! be4 ya get on someones nerves...
p.s err my apology if i offended any aikido people arnd... =) dun worry i haf nothing against ur art moreover i respect it =) juz refering to some people who dun understand wad we martial art people understands.. well u noe wad i mean =)

okok enuff bout HIM...
there was also some gals...
rather enthu..
hahaz well if they do come ngee ann and join NJD...
i really think they haf the potential =)

okok i better head off to bed...
its 1.23 in the morning...
and i got class at 8
sianz... cant fell asleeep even though freaking tired(after working out abit... hey found some dynamic stretching methods rather useful =P well gonna try out for some time see if it works...
then maybe test during NJD bahx..)
well now my minds filled wif alot things again... it always happens during this time de...
listening to 1litres of tears de song...
really found the show beri nice and meaningful...
gave me new insight to life...
well didn't cry when i watch,...
but it did struck me deep when i watch the show...
even noe i think of the images of the show... some scene really makes me feel sad for her..
the kind of feeling ya get when ur about to cry...
however i haben cried since long long ago... so maybe my tears all dry liao...

okok i'm beginnign to crap liao better lights off...
nites..
william

8:57 AM