-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Monday, November 06, 2006

_lost my senses...___

haiz....does life really play tricks on people?
does it always make peoples life miserable?
why is it so that my life is so unfair...
why is it always me that gets all the crap....
haiz theres no answer to it all...

things been bad... it still is...
theres juz too many things going on against me..,.that i feel like poping sometime...

anyway... been thinking alot alot....ever since that moment....
at first i really feel like breaking down...
it feels like everything is once again gone....
but still... wads happen is happened...
theres nothing i can do about it...
now that the decisions are out...
i juz haf to accept that fact...
and come to terms wif it...
no matter how i wish things was different...
i'm sure she has her reasons...
plus i'm not sumone whom people will like easily anyway...
guess i'll juz haf to put a smile on my face and look forward...
swallow wadever pain and feelings...
its not worth it....
if she doesn't like me... its fine... least the frenship exist...
thaats the fact that i haf to accept...
if ya like someone and the someone doesn't like u...
its no point trying to force her into acceptance...
rather juz release her pressure and let her decision be final..
hopefully we'r still close frens like last time bahx...
and if ur reading these...
=) i'm always arnd de... as a fren i'll still be arnd if ya need me...
sumtimes i sense sumtin troubling u...
but ya juz keep them bottled up....
well its okie i guess...up to ya de...
juz if ya need anything...anything at all juz let me noe okie...
well always ya haf been my listening ear...
hearing my problems and all that...
well thx =)
hopefully i'll be ya close fren juz like ur mine...
hmmm okok all this kinda making my post look like erm i donno...
i noe some people read liao will get irritated de lol
my apologise hahaz
anyway tell ya all the truth .... my language is not that good de... therefore
all the things i type i think is in a mess bahx...

k dun write liao... think next time i'll write in the book and use this blog to juz updated wad happen daily

lastly... thanx wake...ya been a true fren... really appreciate ya being there for me =)
although sumtimes i'm an irritant... my apologise be4 hand hahaz
without u i donno wad i'll do when all this crap pops up..
thx
also to my NJD families hahaz
i really like being arnd ya all...
it feels juz like family..
all ya advice i hear and i remember... and i'll not forget them de

sign off bye
william

9:47 AM