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Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

_No matter how Bad life gets... i still haf to look on forward and forge a better day myself..._

hey hey...
been awhile ain't it?
anyway... tot i do a little update for all ya readers...
things been okie... hmmm more like i'm coping it well...(or at least trying..)
schs getting tougher...
but wif a little effort it shld work out fine...
hmmm think i'll juz tok bout friday on...
anyway friday after sch stayed in sch to study with wake and RH...well sort off..
after that my uncle pick me up
went vivocity to eat..
chit chat... found out alot of things
hmmm seriously i do enjoy going out wif him haha...
i remember wen i was small tat time... he used to sabo me(till a point where people can qurrel over wad i did de)
hahaz guess people really do grow up eh?

okok sat went sch again for training..
well theres alot of things i got to improve...
hopefully in 2 months time... (starting after i settle my navy thing...)
within the 2 months... i'm gonna train really hard...
and see where i'll end up...
of coz not comprimising my studies =)
i'm kinda getting to use to the everyday routine kind of life...
at first i tot life without sunmtin to look forward to was miserable...
well it is actuclly...
but then... got used to it...
least i still haf people arnd me who cares hahaz
hmmm and also becoz of this boring routine life... i picked up alot of habit...
good or bad i donno...
i start to observe and listen to my surrounding more...
begin to write a "dairy"(well i think thats wad they call it...or shld i juz say jounal bout my tots for the day whether is it worthwhile day spent or not)
and also plenty of other staff...

so far from my experiences....
lifes pretty much cruel...
but at the same time it also has the positive side to it...
i shall refrain from saying life sux...
coz its not true...
but that doesn't mean lifes good hahaz

thers juz too many thing in life that i wan to haf, wan to find out wan to understand...
its pretty true wad they say..."in life theres always the word while..."
we always go like " i wanna work while studying university part time"
or i wanna listen to music while doing my homework...
its sumtin liddat...
the truth is life too short...(ya dun go see it from seconds point of view of coz..)
and theres juz too many things in life to experience...

okok enuff bout life...
hmmm sumtime i really feel like giving myself an attitude adjustment...
perfect myself more...
i really wonder why sometime even though i try so hard to present myself well..
i'm always turned down...
hmmm things aint always that simple eh?
seriously if any of u thinks theres sumtin wrong wif me... juz let me noe...
least i'll understand myself more...
personally i feel i'm pretty simple... i noe wad rite and wrong... and i'll most of the time side the rite side...
if ya make me hate u... i will hate u to the core
but if ur a true fren to me... then a true fren i will be to the end...
thats sort of how i work i guess..
when i like someone... i stay that way even if its hopeless..
liking them doesn't mean be wif them...to me... being able to see her everyday see her laughter..
i'm satisfied..i shall not ask for more..
ya noe... when people tell me i'm a good person... deep inside me i noe i'm not...
i did things i shouldn't haf done be4...
i haf my dark secrets and side...the side that only few noes...
its juz my regrets...if i could repeat time i would haf prevent it...

hahaz okok

hmmm dunno wad to write liao... nvm shall end here...
i shld be like this more often...
u noe be like calm and cool even wif so many crap in my head and problems and feelings and all that...
hahaha
okok i'm gonna zzz liao...
wif love
william...

P.s...CONGRATZ... ya juz wasted alot of seconds and min reading... hope ya enjoy it haha remember time is precious...
okok lame.. nvm

9:10 AM