-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.
Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
+ zazooosg@hotmail.com
+ 08/10/1989
+ Libra
Friday, January 26, 2007
_____Alot to study so little time_____
exam is juz freaking 1 week away....
after that ios 8weeks holiday.......
which most of the time i will be out of country....
early much will be going genting....
mid march to early april will be going china for a study trip wif sch....
the rest of the free time... i juz wanna spend wif some old frens...
catch up some sch work and if possible a head start to the new semester....
my time managment is getting bad to worst....
hopefully it wont affect anything i'm involve in right now...
worst from next month on i really haf to start to manage my allowance too...
i will be settling my hse de SCV, me and all my sis de HP bills...
my insurance.... and of coz my own daily needs....
though the lump sum seems big... but the fact is its not...
and i wanna save as much as i can...
hmmm wonder wad can i do?...
also... i will need to start elarning how to swim(as in professionally....not juz able to float or swim abit abit...)
think bout the requirement when i'm in the navy... wah... thread water(or is it trap) and do dunno wad float...
better get some real lessons...
also... i feel i'm still overweight....
too much exccess fats arnd...
got to lose lose....
and also work on my stamina and strength...
target to be able to complete 2.4 in less than 10 min
able to do at least 12-20 pull ups....
lastly target to get at least a B for standing board jump(which i'm beri weak at....)_
theres juz so many fuking things to do....
i fear i might start neglecting some things that i'm involve in....
pls forgive me if i do...
ya got to understand....
this things concerns my future....
of coz family, educations always comes first....
all the travelling and maintaining and managing is damn tiring....
hope i dun haf anymore things to worry or even give my time up for...
slping less than 5hrs a day is killer....
sumtime u juz wanna lie down and dun wake up....
nowadays i'm begining to underastand a simple thing call tolerance...
yes my tolerance level is [pretty low if u ask me....
i always try to suit others arnd me...
this in return is bad...for me....
sumtime a imple NO is the best way out but then its juz so darn hard to say....
from now on i will no longer go arnd suiting people....
i dun care if they say anything... or my reputation is affected...
i haf my reasons in doing things...
and sumtime doing sumtin for the sake of others aint always the best things to do...
if things get overwhelming i'll start to drop....
and leave those important ones....
seriously rite now i'm kinda worried over certain issue....
but i shall keep silence till things begin to clearify....
i haf enuff responsiblity for now....
i dun wish to add more....
i shall hold on as much as i can... but if its too overwhelming... dun mind if i start putting things down...
juz now watch saw 3...
figured saw is kinda a meaningful story afterall...
saw 3 kinda sum it all up and gave u the whole picture...
and u finally understand some meaningless things in the previous movie...
hatred and revenge will onli leads to more hatred and revernge....
for the sake of revenge becoz of hatred...one loses everything precious to him....
even loses himself in the precess....
life is short....live it to the fullest and dun waste it....
anyway its late... i need rest...
hope tml will always be a brighter day =)
9:01 AM
Monday, January 22, 2007
_______Some people are juz fuking @#$%....who they are inside and wad shell they are hiding in is totally different...____________________________________________________
in NC class now....
juz witness sumtin really pisses me offf....
notice some people...in their mind all they think is themself....
they will stick to people whom haf use to them....
other than that everyone else is of no importantance to them.....
juz becoz they wanna leave class early....
they can comment about others that are not currently in class
juz becoz they delay the class to start....
to begin wif.... the class suppose to start at 3pm....
so wad u finish ur test early early....
whether u cheat or not i shall not comment....
but cant u juz be patient abit?
haiz.... think.... wad if ur in their shoe and ur class start commenting about u.....
wtf man....
plus slippers... TO BEGIN WIF its aleady said from the start.... its not allowed....
stop fuking aguing wif the lecturer....
.......if ur not fuking intrested in the class get the fuk out of the course.....
i'm not in a mood today.,.. i'm juz gonna flame everything i see not rite....
so not happy ? hate me!
noe this i did nothing wrong and i nv direct at fire at anyone....
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sibei sianz...
yesterday went for comt tio scam...
tot get result in the end
lecture review from first lesson...
sianzzzz...
RH pro ponner
.....
stayed in sch witness some i would consider the type ya would tell them" get a room!"
type of scene....RD...
had dinner wif beloved kanwei haha
then head home...
signing off william
10:04 PM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
______Shopping, eating and drinking.... catching up wif fellow mates haha_____
hey ellox
its a great day today =P
meet up wif porter, jasline,lynn and beechin....
went shopping at heeren =P
at the flesh imp... bought 3 shirts...
got VIP membership....
jas bought a jacket i think...
then lynn bought a bag..
as for porter he didn't get anything....
and wow i tot i was the fast one to start spending lol
bought concession and prezzie for fren sum up bout pass 100
today i found out porter spent almost 1k liaoz pro!!!
that shop beri nice but sianz man the beri nice design sold out !!!
we also saw teddy working at newurbanmale...
haha me and porter asked him wads new... he showed us some underwears!!!
u wont belief wad underwears they sell LOL
"pushup type"
hey teddy...next outing ya muz join us okie we will shop from morning till nite then go clubbing hahaha
okie we went over to wisma meet beechin...
then jasline drive us to marina bay eat steamboat....
there we met our most belovered sgt david
eat and chats loads...
after that jas drove us to esplnade.. walk over to eski bar
i had a " screwdriver" and a terquila shot....
BERI NICE!!!! hahaha muz haf more!!!
damn man we shld haf sat near the door LOL its cold till when u tok can see "smoke"
lol but we sat inside haha its still cold but not that cold...
i wanna hurry turn 18....then i wont be a burden holding ya all back from going places like MOS,dxo etc....i also wan go!!!! hahaha
after that they took turns drive us all home haha
thx ya all =D
today i found out damn i'm youngest among them alll....
they all at least is 87 de i the onli 89 de...sadz
nvm nvm oct pass i wanna go learn driving....
by then clubbing wont be a problem for me liaoz hahaha
k
shall write till here....
signing off
william
hey jas remember email me the pics okie
11:45 AM
Friday, January 19, 2007
______PayDay!!______
hihihi
today is a great day lol
notice they finally bank in my first 3 months de allowance liao
muhahaha time to spend... jkjk
actuclly i think 3k i need put aside 1k for monthly needs, 500 to save the other 500 to spend... and another 1k to give my dad if he needs it...
tell ya the truth i'm juz glad the pays in coz now i can manage my own life liao...
liddat i dun haf to put too much pressure on my dad...
but i do wish... by doing so.... he can use the money that he dun need to give me
to settle otghers things....and not that i become another source to take from...
i mean yes... if the family need finacial help...
i'm there to lend a hand....
but its juz my reasons to sign on is partly so that i can help lighten the load and not take it....
i noe i sound unfilial...
but i'm not....juz i dunno how explain in words...
still i'm still gonna set aside the amount incase the family needs it...
if it dun need i'll juz save....
one got to noe nothing is free in the world....
theres always a price for anything...
therefore... i will not recklessly give/lend away this money that i exchange wif part of my life...
anyway bought concession for my ez link....
and bought some prezzie....
and draw out abit of money coz short....
and i notice wow its true money do go down really fast....
in a day i spend almost 150...
but okie lah concession itself is arnd 97 dollar...
hmmm this 3k can pamper myself coz next back pay in next month... but once next month get liao... time to control... coz if 3 months de 3k i finish in 1 month... then liddat the rest 2 month GG...
okie enuff bout money.... hahaha and also dun look at me like i'm rich... the fact is i'm not...
if i am i wouldn't haf sign on...
wouldn't haf waste time not to go university....
today had AEL lab test... it was well except... people at the window really gave me alot of unneeded stress.... idiots....
hmmm but more or less can score bahx... juz a few careless mistake here and there....
to those who dun do well...
if its becoz u didn't even put effort into it and hope ur last min attempt can save u...
guess again... things dun work like that...
u wanna learn sumtin or even if ur lazy to do so... always do it early....
dun give excuses like "oh i onli last min study can remember and then do..." coz deep down inside u noe its not true....
personally i think its no point cheating....
coz if u dun noe and dun help ur self... all the more u shld fail and use it as wake up call and start working...
if u did try ur best and need help in some areas... i guess people can close one eye....
to score in an area which deep down inside u noe u dun noe shit....and even tok like u noe it...
i hate this kind of people...
so wad if ur paper says u got full marks?
haf u use ur own effort to get it ?
if u did then its okie... if not....
i despise u, u will appear as no value in my view....
get the picture?
i noe saying all this is like shooting stright at ur pride etc...
noe this i'm not here to flame...
me...i juz say wad i feel its not rite....
agree or disagree as u may....
but he fact is i haf rite of free speech in my own little blog...
so hate me like me as who i really am... and not who u think i am....
ALSO....please dun think too far too much.... i'm not flaming or refering anyone....
juz if the description fits... u noe wad i mean....if u insist that ur not then ur not....
it doesn;t really matter to me....
okie next part...
happy birthday JQ =)
today was fun....
hahah thai food was not bad =D
zzz now abit zzz but cant zzz liaoz
man the city shld haf a bus to tampines....
i took the bus and i miss simei ended up in pasir ris....
manage to find my way home from there....
thank goodnesss....
now heres a casew wher u haf money but cant do shit....
u haf it in bank....
but no atm in sight...
taxis no nets....
so GG walk home bahx most acient methods LOL
anyway had loads of fun =)
signing off
william
1:01 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
_____Drinking....toking....understanding....._______
Monday
its me again in the MRT now....
its 23.36 now...
one of the last few trains left....
today...
had IAC did okie...
manage to fak pass everything....
although some things are really unfair....
a fren of mine did so much work but is credited less.....
it juz aint rite....
and he doesn't wan to do anything about it...
anyway had training today also.....
it went pretty okie...except for my injured arm....
had to bear wif it for the entire moment =P...
after training met up wif kanwei and RH...thinking back they can consider my first few frens in NP =)
was feeling kinda mixed... etc....
drinking 100plus waiting for them....
feel like drinking....
and chatting wif people....
bought another 100plus...
suddenly when they arrive....
kanwei ask wan go drink aot...
he suddenly got the feeling to drink....
wad a coincident =)
seems like we'r both thinking pretty similar...its no wonder why we can get along.. and understand each other so well =)
went clememnti search for a 7/11....
didn't find decided to go fairprice...look thru the alcohol section... too an E thirty three...
then we went over a viod deck and sit and chat...
well tell ya all the truth...
its one of the best time i haf since this yr start...able to enjoy a little drink wif a fren...
chat and understand more bout each other....
share the good stuff and the bad stuff....
learned a couple of things today....
found out alot more...
all kinds of things from good to bad.. to sad....
shall skip the detail of the conversation =)
juz after this day... i noe...
i noe my dear fren a little better...
seems we can cummunicate [pretty well...
we think alike....overall had a great time....
now i noe next time wheni need a drink and a chat who i can turn to =P
hahaz of coz not forgeting all my old pals too =)
anyway i think i'll end it here....
enjoying a drink and share a moment wif a lad is one of the best thing anyone can ever haf...
i cherish this very moment very much =)
sgning off with love, care and concern...
william
i will always like her, although things will nv be like fairytales...i'm contented juz able to see her everyday...dumb i may be... plumb i may look...but always faithful in wad ever i do will always be sumtin i wont forget...be it fruitful or not...
k anyway yesterday had math quiz...
i manage to be able to do the integration but trigo was bad....
studies the nite be4 till damn tired... haiz...
also FOOP i shall leave no comment and i nv see nor noe or find out about wadever practical test... rather i wanna juz finish study wadever i need to study and do well in the end of semester exams.....
cant really remember anything else shall update it on another day......
chao....
=P
6:12 PM