-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Friday, January 26, 2007

_Alot to study so little time_

exam is juz freaking 1 week away....
after that ios 8weeks holiday.......
which most of the time i will be out of country....
early much will be going genting....
mid march to early april will be going china for a study trip wif sch....
the rest of the free time... i juz wanna spend wif some old frens...
catch up some sch work and if possible a head start to the new semester....
my time managment is getting bad to worst....
hopefully it wont affect anything i'm involve in right now...
worst from next month on i really haf to start to manage my allowance too...
i will be settling my hse de SCV, me and all my sis de HP bills...
my insurance.... and of coz my own daily needs....
though the lump sum seems big... but the fact is its not...
and i wanna save as much as i can...
hmmm wonder wad can i do?...
also... i will need to start elarning how to swim(as in professionally....not juz able to float or swim abit abit...)
think bout the requirement when i'm in the navy... wah... thread water(or is it trap) and do dunno wad float...
better get some real lessons...
also... i feel i'm still overweight....
too much exccess fats arnd...
got to lose lose....
and also work on my stamina and strength...
target to be able to complete 2.4 in less than 10 min
able to do at least 12-20 pull ups....
lastly target to get at least a B for standing board jump(which i'm beri weak at....)_
theres juz so many fuking things to do....
i fear i might start neglecting some things that i'm involve in....
pls forgive me if i do...
ya got to understand....
this things concerns my future....
of coz family, educations always comes first....
all the travelling and maintaining and managing is damn tiring....
hope i dun haf anymore things to worry or even give my time up for...
slping less than 5hrs a day is killer....
sumtime u juz wanna lie down and dun wake up....

nowadays i'm begining to underastand a simple thing call tolerance...
yes my tolerance level is [pretty low if u ask me....
i always try to suit others arnd me...
this in return is bad...for me....
sumtime a imple NO is the best way out but then its juz so darn hard to say....
from now on i will no longer go arnd suiting people....
i dun care if they say anything... or my reputation is affected...
i haf my reasons in doing things...
and sumtime doing sumtin for the sake of others aint always the best things to do...
if things get overwhelming i'll start to drop....
and leave those important ones....
seriously rite now i'm kinda worried over certain issue....
but i shall keep silence till things begin to clearify....
i haf enuff responsiblity for now....
i dun wish to add more....
i shall hold on as much as i can... but if its too overwhelming... dun mind if i start putting things down...

juz now watch saw 3...
figured saw is kinda a meaningful story afterall...
saw 3 kinda sum it all up and gave u the whole picture...
and u finally understand some meaningless things in the previous movie...
hatred and revenge will onli leads to more hatred and revernge....
for the sake of revenge becoz of hatred...one loses everything precious to him....
even loses himself in the precess....

life is short....live it to the fullest and dun waste it....

anyway its late... i need rest...
hope tml will always be a brighter day =)

9:01 AM