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This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
+ zazooosg@hotmail.com
+ 08/10/1989
+ Libra
Thursday, May 31, 2007
____1st of june, a frens birthday and one of the worst day of my 2007___________
Feeling damn fuked up rite now rite this moment.
feeling damn fuked up thinking bout it....
so fuked up i wish time can rewind....
or i can get sumtin to vent my anger on.....
i juz cant accept this damn fact... that that damn lectuerer fail my lab test...
everyone else passed.....
WTF EVERYONE ELSE!!!!
i'm suppose to be one of those who noes wad to do....
one of those who shld do well in this damn module...
i mean look.... my weekly online test all above 90%
and i did not fuking cheat....
i refered to the notes both online and book....
okie fine i do haf access to the answer..... but i did not fuking use it....
i onli refer to it after i submited the papers damn it....
DAMN FUKED UP!!!
i mean if ya wanna fail m at least give me a jolly good reason to do so...
how can i accept " suppose to be correct wah?, nvm u all fail"
thats juz unreasonable....
i mean wtf excuse is that....
i followed every step from the past lab practice....
and all the last few practices... i finished one of the first few....
I NOE MY WORK!!! DARN IT!!
now this time.... i configured everything accordingly
then the darn router prompt me "ospf detected duplicate router id of 130.1.0.1 from........my serial interface"
i mean like wtf...
how would i noe wads wrong?
i tot maybe sacriface one or few marks ask the lectuerer for help...
he come and say ROUTER ID same....
i ask him wad router id?
he say i shld go read my notes.... its very important o noe my theory be4 doing lab...
but wtf is the router id problem?
so he say nvm after i fail u i tell u why and wads wrong...
so i didn't give up i recheck over and over again.....
even redid the router....
so later he came and he check my router and he fuking hell say... suppose to be correct wah?
nvm u all fail....retest next week....
WTF!!! WAD KIND OF FUKING REASON IS THAT?
u dun noe wads fuking wrong wif my lab...
and u fuking ffail me?
i did every fuking damn steps same as chunwei and norvin...
its juz unacceptable.....
fuking hell unacceptable....
i shld haf juz stay there and queastion his decision....
queastion his knowledge.,...
queastion his fuking athority/....
its juz so fuking unfair....
how can u fail me when everything was done accordingly.,.
i eman like damn.....my protocol is up my line is up juz the damn ospf keep kping about sumtin... and dun allow my ospf....
FEELING DAMN FUKED UP RITE NOW>>> ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS SO FUKING CLOSE TO THE CT....
and i'm not 100% prepared for it....
this year is juz so darn fuked up....
everything else screwed up....
i'm juz so fuking lost....
why the fuk am i here and why am i like this now?
JUZ SO DARN sdf sdf hkhwek htiowuepocnpi2379 oafj;dskj
its juz like back in first year sem one ....
i know my in1 and due to some swayness i almost failed it...
but this fuking time he fuking hell failed me...!!!!\
FUCK UU!!!!!!
arseholes....
damn router,,,,,
now i'm like the damn laughing stock in class...
fine... i fail... i sux...
i dun deserve to pass...
wadver u say...
this time on i only onli help myself... and screw everyone else....
they'r good they'r string thats their problem....
anyway my life had nv been in the light anyway....
its always or i shld say mostly dark...
filled wif problems...
juz gald i haf a bright happen family who even at the darkest time... make the hse feels
light and warm... like the one place i can always noe its safe....
LIFE IS JUZ SO DARN FUKED UP>>>>>
i can fall now i can fall ever....
i wont let all u arseholes all arnd bring me down...
never!
why does damn things always happen to me...
i know its unfair to say that,...
everyone haf their own hardship and problem...
but stilll
its juz too darn fuked up....
if i flung his sem... thats it end of the line for me....
dun care if i'm give a 2nd chance option... its still the end of the line for me....
and if this juz screw up somemore.....
i not onli failed myself...
i drag everyone close to me togatehr wif me....
ARGGHHHHhhhhhh111111...... juz darn fuked up thinking bout it........
i juz hate myself rite now....
hate myself for being weak....
i dun even haf the guts to face reality...
dun haf the guts to face anything at all...
i'm a damn fuking coward...
spineless
a fake....
people like me dun go far....
wont achieve much.....
....
i'm not who people see or think i am... i shld say i'm the opposite...
i'm weak in personality, looks, even knowledge and skills....
i dun haf leadership like wad they say...things juz screws up when i come o be in charge,...
i shldn't haf take up presidency in my club....
i dun deserve it...i dun haf wad it takes...
the fact is i'm good at nothing,...
AND THATS GONNA CHANGE.... at least i'm gonna try... if that fails... than i guess theres no reason for me to be here anymore...
reasons already lost long time ago....
now its juz the people, the things i hold dear...
holding me togather....
and it sumtimes juz feels like wadever is inside gonna explode and break free....
ARGHHH JUZ SOMDARN FUKING STRESS NOW>>> I FEEL LIKE BURSTING>>>.
juz wish theres sumone out there i can turn to sumone who can help me...i'm juz a damn weakling... who can even handle anything myself....a failure....
argh fuk wad am i saying,...
forget it... this all crap congrats u juz wasted ur time reading....
now i'm juz gonna fuk off....
\good for nothing...
william
11:55 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
_____Feeling damn tired and fuk up.......__________________
its 14th of may... and i'm going poor...
this sem every now and then i'm like always late for class....
its juz damn **** up....
i mean i want to go to sch on time and attend all classes...
but then i'm like juz too darn tired....
i'm like always not having enuff time... for everything...
trying to balance time between work and frens and everything else....
things is like slowly juz getting screwd up....
sumtime i feel i'm going insane...
trying my best to hold my self
togather....
zzzz
now having AOOP lecture....
gonna write this fast fast... so i wont miss anything important....
juz a little up date on recent event....
first off was i went to DXO for frens birthday....
got to know a few nice people there...
then also went to classmate de birthday chalet....
was okie i guess.... got to know some things there too...
anyway.... dun feel like writing anymore...
feeling fuked up....
contridicting feeling... confusion....
ARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cracking my head....
its juz so pointless but i cant seem to sort things out...
fuking off...
william
7:16 PM