-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Friday, November 30, 2007

5.50 pm same day as previous post
feeling abit crpped up... was chatting wif a good fren of mine...
well feeling alot beter after that...
a few suggestion she told me...
maybe i shld give it a try eh?

write everything i think or feel down on a paper...
maybe i shld keep a book and pen near by...

at the moment.. i feel regrets...
tiredness...
confusion..
worry...
headache...
bored?...

its quite true someone once told me... if ur doing something which ya not interested in then ur wasting ur time...
well my personal dreams currently i'm going further and further away..from it...
but the fact is in sg... time juz cant be wasted for changing to wad ya wanna do...

i guess theres no one else to blame but myself..
if last time i had done better who noes i would haf got into sumtin i wanted

but sicne i'm already on a path i picked...
i will haf to walk it all out...

alot of things i juz cant seem to put behind me...
why do they juz keep coming back to me all at once?

someone told me... ya haf something that not many haf...
that ur able to forgive wad others done wrong to hurt u..
i ask myself... is that true?
but the things is why muz i haf gone thru it in the first place? so i can forgive them later on?
there muz be something i done to get hurt by others..

i'm starting to feel i'm annoying those around me...
rather then juz be there for them i seem to haf become a worry a burden an annoyance...

maybe thats why from the past till now people juz slowly disappear?

today out of everyone i msg only like 2-3 replied... and only like 1 or 2 actuclly talked..

i think i'm really startign to annoy people..

things aside...
hey people lets go watch movie some time, go hang out, sing song... or juz go for a stroll...
i wont drink or get wasted i promise...
or juz hang out do studies for exams.. juz like old times?

ya noe that really bad thing i dun like about blogging...
ya write as if ur talking to it thinking its the one who understand wad u mean... while other who read might not...

it doesn't reply....or say anything....

doesn't scold u... or pissed u off...

its juz like i could juz darw a person on a wall and talk to it..

hmmm maybe reply myself ?

hahaz if i do...

i'd tell myself...

go get some slp

okok

ur thinking way too much.....

me? thinking way too much...

yea u...

so wad if u feel alone... and people around u are busy...
ya cant expect people to be wif u the whole time ur entire life rite

true true...

but thinking of them gone is worst zzz

...hey tell u dun think so much le rite!
go get something to drink, milk, tea or anything...
then go listen some music and slp or go do ur work!
or even better go help ur mum and dad clean the house

zzzz fine dun talk to u le....
zzz headache....

hmmm wth am i doing zzz
talking to myself...
lol

hmmm maybe i shld do it more...
feels fun...no one noes me better then myself rite?

okok i better stop...

tc ya all...
william

1:50 AM