-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

another weeks has past......

honestly i'm feeling very crappy recently...
constantly feeling down, stress, like as if i'm being crash by the very world i live in....
also... i'm very disappointed wif myself...
things i said i wont ever allow my self to do... i not only done it, i done it twice...
things i said not to do, but do it for enjoyment wif frens...
i somewhat use it for my own purpose...
what the hell is happening to me...
honestly right this very moment i'm damn worried bout alot of things...
who can i turn to?
who can i talk to?
or i shld say.... wad is actuclly wrong that i need to talk to people about?
feeling lost.....
and crappy too...

wish time could juz pause so i can sort things out...
time waits for no one...
someone please entertain me....
again... i'm in a situation where i'm all alone again...

be4 anything else... i would really wanna say...
to my frens...
i'm really sry for wad happen the other day...
u haf my words i wont ever do it again...
or at least try...

...

anyway the other day, went lunch wif qh then met up wif arif and group head over mich place..
played wii
till around the nite, went out to meet qh and jf..
it was suppose to be a simple gathering ...
we were talking pretty happily...
till abit later on...
nvm dun wish to talk the details...
lets juz say i over did it again...
and i had to rely on my frens to send me home...
i'm really sorry...
really disappointed wif myself...

well the next day had to drag myself to sch...
was feeling really terrible....
finished lab had lunch
then afternoon class i juz couldn;t bring myself to go...
so i went out to met eva to lighten myself up abit...
met her at dolby ghaut went around shopping..
honestly shes a pretty interesting person...
learned a couple of things from her...
till late afternoon...went over her best frens place,
kinda slack abit, be4 they left to meet their frens be4 i left for home...

well things seem to be good that day...
but still i hardly could bring myself to slp...
sometimes i really love/hate night time...

thats about all i guess..

somethings i'm very curious...
how come a simple fren can make someone think so much and worry so much till she can put herself in the way of misery?
i wonder if that fren was me would anything be different?
juz wanted o tell her give it some time dun think too much, 3 times i said he'll reply and he did...
so believe me when i say his not wad ya think?

hahaz seeing otehrs liek that i wonder anyone will act that way if it was me?

nah juz a tot...

i think i'll write till here.... maybe i juz go tidy the place up abit,
then maybe go study?

william

to all my frens take care....
to myself...pls shake it off and get a hold of urself zzzz
...

11:01 PM