-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Friday, November 16, 2007

Theres no reason to get pissed wif people i dun care, but why cant i not get pissed wif people i care about...__________

Note to self, please dun usually blast my music so loud...peoplle dun like it....

be4 i get all naggy and rant bout how i feel rite this moment...
juz wanna write abit about ytd and all...hopefully i wont be pissed after that...

went zouk/phuture ytd wif jf and fren...
well i dun think it went quite well..
jf wasn't exectly happy bout things there..
i think its juz the crowed bahx and the music not his kind?
oh well hey forget bout ytd, next in the future we go again and who noes things mighjt be better?

oh yea ytd also went dinner wif bro and mich and xanthe..
long time no see them..
its nice to see everyone well =)

went home around 2 am plus ytd,
again muz really thx jf dad for sending me home..
really appreciate it.

slp quite well last nite...
then this morning..
juz be4 i woke up or at least when i open my eyes...
i suddenly think about her...
started to wonder wad would things be like if things havent been the way they are back then..
i wondered where is she now...
wad is she doing..
wad is she studying...
sometimes i really would juz love to see her again..
though i noe things wont ever be good between us again...
maybe back then i wasn't a good fren/a good bf....
but rite now i juz wanna noe where and how is she doing...
if okie be frens again..

haiz.. nvm.....
i shld juz drop the tots... put it all behind me...i shld already haf done it long time ago....

juz now was chatting wif some frens from work to some reality things...
more like debating things...
though our conversation heated up...
we exchange viewpoints..
reasoning wif each other...
i got really pissed wif him...
yes my mindset aint 100% rite nor is it wrong...
but why can he juz F***ing give me a little respect i deserve...
though different mindset we haf...
i merely share my viewpoint...
and wad he did?
"YAWN!!!"
"LOOK WHOS TEACHING ME!!"

i'd say fine... if ur so relactant to accept wad i say or at least listen then i haf nothing to say to u...
so wad if u, ur somebody discovered sometime worth millions...billions...
so wad if it meant the whole world owe ya money?
so wad?
from a good thing... the way u put it it becomes sometin negative...
i tell u first... if i were to die from a diease from ech theres no cure...
except thru u...
i wont even bother...
i'd live my life to the fullest
forfiling wadeevr i set out to do...
and pass on wif no regrets..
somethings juz cant be held...

some things my uncles said is so true...
yes... i'm young inexperince and all...
but i learned to accept wad people say, think bout it... from a third party prospective..
take a step back and think the whole thing out...
somethings i really dun understand is the selfish mentality of human beings..
yes... some things are positive...
but then it also brings some negative wif it...
why cant people juz be content wif wad they haf and strive to achieve wad they can..
well i admit i'm a human too i too haf selfish intent and tots...
but it shldn't be the one driving my life...
forget... i juz dunno how to write it out...
some of ya might udnerstand... some wont...
i wont blame/judge ya if u disagree..
u haf ur own free will..

i'm jzu so pissed i cant think stright....
wads worst then getting hurt by others words?
being insulted by them thru the lack of minimum respect...that everyone deserve...
...
i shld juz stop here...
i hold no grudge on anyone...
hopefully people hold none on me..
and dun judge me base on their own ideas and others words...

i'm talking crap...
william

11:37 PM