-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Monday, December 03, 2007

time check......9.28am...tuesday....4th dec....
currently in class...
IN4 (internetworking 4) lecture....
honest the lesson is not that boring juz i cant seem to really pay attention....
anyway be4 all that...
damn sianz...
manage to woke up early, but fell back asleep...
then in the end need burn cash to get myself to sch on time....
took 250 de ride....
hmmm make that 450

well recently alot been happening...
and been very down lately...
but its quite true, what some people say....
as in like if u think ur going thru the crapiest day of ur life... then soon... it'll all be over and its gonna be a great day on its way here...
still mood rie now, really worried....
and well a little bit of disappointment still wif some things....
currently this 2 feelings overwhelm the rest...
which is kinda good too...
keep myself occupied....

note to myself....
get mugging....
start working hard again....
hold myself togather again...
i cant fail now... gone too far to fail now....
do it for my parents, my frens and most importantly myself....

also =P start to work out again....
i'm sure my back is alrite now...
even though the appointment is on janaury....
else i'm really gaining lots of weight....
which is a big NONO!!

from now till after next weds...
i'm putting my study at first priority...
its juz 2 paper...
got to sit down and really understand and study....
juz like how i did in first year.....

anyway enuff wif all those....

a little bit bout yesterday...
sch sch and sch....
followed by heading home....
hmmm not really...
met ong and qianhui for dinner
well it beats having dinner alone... or missing dinner when i get home...
oh and also i'm pretty much happy yesterday, managed to do the pratical part of my IPD project 2....

good job team....
well now lets put our brains into the research and presentation shall we...

i dun expect to much from all of ya,... but i wanna see effort =)
wif effort... i'm sure i can comprimise things to help each other out...
i wont leave people behind to die... unless they really deserve it....

thats about everything bout yesterday...

well a little personal things...
i'm learning to go thru this hard time...
wif the help of my frens....
and family
i really wanna thank them....
i mean i been screwing my life up recently over alot of old things... or tots or basically breaking down and not wanting to communicate...
i really wanna talk to people bout it
but i juz couldn't find the words to say...
or i juz dun wanna let them worry or let my problems become a burden for them....
honestly i feel i shld be able to manage things...
no matter how hellish it is....

i expect alot from my own life...
and i dun wanna fail myself,....
or the people around me....

i love the people around me whether they love me or not...
it doesn;t matter....

anyway gtg do work le... shall update again soon....

william

5:28 PM