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Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

update......

honestly feeling quite crappy now...
hmmmm nvm ...
anyway...
havent written anything ever since thursday....
well heres a little wad happen past few days...
lets see friday...
followed my poly fren go town, wake got a wii, then went to heeren walk walk...
wanted to buy some clothes but then decided to wait for other days...
there i also bought a tee shirt for my bro arif...
well i'm thinking of getting some other thing for him as well...
but still deciding...
was at newurbanmale, saw a shirt...
"i declear myself mr emo.."
wanted to get one for myself... but then its in light blue color...
hmmm maybe next time i go town then decide...
wanted to get for arif "i declear myself mr horny.."
lol

hmmm then head down to bugis...
wake bought guitar hero 3 for wii...
then went down to sim lim square...
well honestly thru out the whole time was feeling abit not myself...
but well least i;m outside wif company...
hmmm after all that... i met my uncle at KK...
brought me go ngee ann city...
had dinner at sushi teh.
hmmm well had lots of sashimi lol
there the things very fresh =P
shld bring the rest of my frens go eat some other time...
then later went down to plaza sing..
walk walk.... coz movie was like 12.05
burn time... till....
we went starbucks sit down...
starting talking botu things and taking pics LOL
talking bout pics...
i think theres something wrong wif me...
i tend to shiver as in cant stay still when i hold things and all...
took a pic wif his k850i wif the stabalizer off... the pic was like blur like hell...
hmmm then later watched the warlord...
hmmm shall save the details of the movie till later... coz i watched the same movie the next day...

went home bout 3 plus...

then next day...
rest at home...
till bout 4 plus 5
went to meet hakim...
well was suppose to go town shop...
then in the end we went down raffles place...
eski...
sat down talk and all...
and omg he bully me sia...
make me drink alot of heavy drinks zzz...
was suppose to juz haf a frustration and thats it...
frustration is sumtin like graveyard... rum,gin,borbon, triple sec, etc except its not stout but beer...
then followed by a flaming lambogini....
then nvm stright after another flame of glory....
honestly feeling dizzy after that le....
plus wif all the cant slp and all that crap...
wah...

then nvm later went to somersat station waited for ben and the rest to appear...
sat there like idiot...
well luckily xanthe came...
company me...
then met derrick
its been awhile since i saw him ...
had dinner at hongkong cafe..
then went to play pool...
then buy movie "the warlord" again... till next mornign then cab home... reach home bout 7 am...
thats about it for wad happen...

now for the movie...
technically a pretty complicated movie...
too many ways to view the story...
but the thing that came to my mind when i watch was me, arif and ck...
it reminded me of us....
shall save the details of the show.... no spoilers here...

anyway during the movie... or i shld say at the movie...
the spot i sat...
it was the same spot... i sat wif her 2 years back... when we watch peter pan i think...
its juz suddenly remember....
damn crappy... why cant i juz forget things.... or things juz go smoothly...
nvm...

as for today...
went grandparent place
see all my adorable cousins...
=P

thats about it for the few days...

ya noe at this moment... a queastion juz pop into my mind...
how important am i to anyone?
would my disappearence be any difference to the world?
do they mean it when people call u a fren... call u a bro?
or is it juz mere usuage of u and dispose of u later...?
i ask myself.... when people are in need if they mean sumtin to me i'll do wad ever it takes to help them out...
but if its the other way roudn would tthings be the same?
would the people whom i would give my life to help them do the same to me?
i noe there are some... least i hope i'm rite...
well beside queastions...
the thing thats really going thru my mind now...
is...
well looking at her pic i came across the other time...
tried deleting it...but always ended up restoring it back...
i really wonder... why do i go thru hell wanting something that almsot took everything away from me(i dun mean materailistically, i'm talking about feelings here...)
why do i wan or cling onto something that brought so much crap onto me?
why do i still wan it back now...
even though i noe i doubt it will last... or haf a happy ending...
why...
why do i think it all the time?
really enjoyed the time when i juz came into poly... when everything was juz fresh start...
nothing to think, worry, stress...
why is it not the same now...
now its always tired...why this why that worry this and that...
think this and that...
argh crap... nvm....
its sumtime bad enuff feeling kinda lonely even wif frens around me...
shldn't make it worst...

hmmm nvm,....
i'll juz end here...

take care ya all...
i'm always here for ya (wonder whos here for me )
william
fren to the end no matter if u think the same of me as i think of u....

7:33 AM