-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

well back to post again...

hmmm let see... where shld i begin...

recap...
yesterday...
dinner wif qh and jf...
then went down bugis shop shop =P
then followed by going down eski again...
was pretty fun
met this new guy...
tom... this new bartender
was an ex ngee ann poly...
till he kenna kick for doing some stunt to the sch..
well i had a frustration, a flame of glory and a drink created by tom... he named it "fuked up"
it was absinthe red, green and black(well black is 85% alchohol the rest is at least 75% bahx) wif barcadi 151, light up and dose it wif beer...
its killer man...
both for the pocket and ur mouth...
it bites and numbs u...
was shiok./..
jf and 2 submarin(finally the shots is in the glass)
and qh had a fallen angel(pretty nice drink) and a flame of glory on me =)
after that went home...
well everything was okie till i lay down ...
suddenly feel really crappy...
so chat wif some people online...
sms and called eva...
cant really rememebr wad i said... all i rememebr was i talk and cry and crap alot...
then after that went to slp le...
was slping soundly till my sis burge in next morning...
telling me no power for today...
zzz my room became so hot zzz
so juz wake up headache and all...
went wif sis to help my other sis take N level result...
congratz she made it...
then went shopping...
then meet up parent go pick up sis from oversea...

then back home...

well today i learned of sumtin which my dad talked about be4...
kinda motivate me to move on...
sumtin like a safty net... if life fails me i noe where i'll head to...
somewhere where people will accept u for who u are... a new identity...
except that the fact that u put ur life on the line...
1 in 10 dun come back...
but well its juz a tot...
i got next 10 years to consider...
if life really fails me i think i'll walk that path...
wif the approval of my parent...
leaving everything behind me...
honestly speaking...
i still cant let go...of some things...
but i;m trying really hard to...
i noe it annoys people...
but my apologies...
i will try harder...
my fren gave me 3 months max to move on...
i'll try...
i give myself 10 years to push for a better life...
a meaningful one...
else... i'll fly to paris and walk thru that gate....
but thinking now... is it something i wan?
if the world doens't wan me... then i guess thats definately the place to go...
well its still too early to say...or decide...
so wif that in mind, i'll juz put everthing on the line and push my life...
right now its juz a tot...
a 2nd chance

hmmm now that i;m motivated to push and move on...
i shall end here and rest...

somethings is betetr to juz keep wif myself...and myself only...
william

9:32 AM