-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Monday, January 07, 2008

back to blog again...

well today was extremely tired... gonna slp soon...hopefully tml can wake up or i'm really screwed
anyway todays presentation was a success...
well at least i think it was..
looks like my effort didn't go to waste...
well compare mine to the rest... mine is nothing compared to theirs
juz glad least my teamates all made it..

well besides that...
todays lab.. there a some problems.. and i kinda felt abit useless..
as in i dunno wads going on..
and i wasn't any help at all...

after sch... went to somerset to met jf and qh..
well sat at TCC for a coffee
well it was really nice to hang otu again..
well ligthen up the mood and all..
was abit tired.. and thinking bout some things bahx so abit quiet..

well beside that... some things to take note... BTT coming up, then next week got lab test need prepare...
and sian think of this motnh i abit sian...
haben get money owe money le...
230 to jf, 250 to my uncle, 70 to get memory card, 97 for transport, 109 for insurance, then at least 100+ for certain things i getting for myself and my fren..
well no matter wad... even if i eat into next month got to make sure i haf sufficient for the month of march...
feb is gonna be a busy time for me...
so hopefully wont spend that much bahx...
and of coz hopefully the money i lend people can hurry back to me...
oh well well see as things goes bahx...

now got to worry botu sch first...
and of coz my back...
really hope it heals soon...
i really wanna get back to running and all...
i'm already useless enuff... i dun wanna becoz of my back i screwed even more things up...
no pain no gain... got to push...
like they say if it doesn't kill me it makes me stronger...

well recently been trying to occupy myself and all that... think of the things some people told me...
and well try to help me self out bahx...
doesn't seem to do much of a change...
but still trying...
hahaz though i moved on... i still think of her...
the time i had wif her.. and all that be it good or bad...
if time could juz turn back and freeze at that moment when we first met..
hahaz nvm i'm juz crapping...
i shld juz burn this memory,... and find something else in its place or sumtin...
a fren told me...i'm a guy... i shld be strong enuff to let go and go for something else or sumtin,liddat cant really remember...
well the way i am now i think i'm a disgrace to guys...
but hey i'm me wad can ya do bout it ya?
well the fact is i'm trying ... and well maybe juz maybe some things io chose not to forget...
rather cling onto the moment of joy hahaz...
hmmm wad am i saying...

anyway... i will move on de... i already did...
juz i'll do things when i feel the time is rite bahx...
or maybe i wont ever... but who noes ya...

now is juz to get the important things settled first... everything else aside...
and yes i noe there are others worst then me...
i shld be glad and stuff like that i noe...
well... technically 2 person in helll going thru hell.... even if 1 is worst then the other... i still think they both feel terrible ...
anyway... i'll be fine i guess... i think i can/i haf to... take care of myself...
i shldn't burden the people around me...
even if i were to kill myself...i'd haf to make sure it has nothing to do wif anyone around me... but of coz i doubt i ever will...

aiya i think ya all noe wad i eman and all lah... i not every good wif words and i;'m damn tired...sick of alot of things...

shall go to slp...
take care ya... love ya all... i dunno wad i'll be or where i'll be now without u people watching and caring for me...
i promise i'd be strong...

william
hopefully i can wake up tml

8:30 AM