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This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

lol days past like in a blink of an eye..
i tot i juz updated yesterday but it was 2 days ago already =P
okok anyway, lets see wads been happening lately...
well been rather on the bright side these days... manage to juz put all my problems aside and juz put my heart to things thats really important to me.
well tuesday i kinda pon sch, kinda glad i did, coz well there was no sch at all =P
imagined if i travelled down =P
anyway.. slpt and woke up rather late..
then rotted at home..
oh then in the afternoon,
my good fren called =P
quite happy she did, for a fren like her i'll be free anytime, anywhere =D
hey i noe it sounds kinda corny and all.. but its the truth, well shes been a really good fren to me, a fren worth cherishing, well shes really a good fren
well anyway shes was in the area, and well she needed my help
i headed down to meet her, she was at the library and well her love for reading tempted her to loan many many books, hey thats good, dun be shy bout it or wad,
well anyway i dun really borrow books from library(i'm always stuck in sch)
so use all ya wan any other time ya need juz let me noe... utilize my card to loan as many as ya wan, no harm no worries at all...
then after that i went off wanted to cut my hair, but see the salon all pack i sianz 1/2
i think i'll leave it till after chinese new year, omg talking bout CNY, i haben done my shopping or anything for it... how how... =P
hmmm time to put my wit to the test and improvise or die die sqeeze time go shopping =Dbut kinda sian like no mood shop hahaz.
okok then head home
oh i reached home, decided to help my teammate revamp the entire PPT for tml presentation...
it was horrendous.. but okie got to praise them for their effort.
then after that pop some painkillers and did some simple workout(well i shall explain later why i keep doing that)
then after that shower played some games, added alot of games lately, well help my dear frens find some very addictive interesting games.
then lay back listen some music and had a glass of vodka orange(opps, i noe i noe its bad... but its juz 1 glass no more)
then off i went to slp

this morning.. woke up... feeling abit tired... but then promised a classmate tat i will follow him go swimming today..
so off i went left house early...

-sidetrack-
omg... damn nice.. listening "celine dion - To love you more(instrumental)"

okok
back on track..
met him in sch early had some breakfast.. then off we went to swim..
it was a really nice weather...
the sun the water the breeze...
wad a way to start the day.
did bout 15 lap (width)
then shower and head for class.
today was the last class of I&E(sumtin like TP de cds or sp de gems)
well my lectuerer bought food lots of it..
drinks, then we partied then back to presentation..
well my group people was kinda crapped but we manage to pull thru..
talking bout that somethings kinda upset me..
but then i shall warite it later..
then after that took a long bus ride home... i kinda love doing that if i got the time to burn.. take it slow and think thru things...
lets see wad else i did...
oh smsed some of frens, though not much actuclly replied or even bother to talk to me or wad.. maybe they'r juz busy..
least got one of them actuclly replied me and all...
though she sounded kinda not the same today, muz be sumtin troubling her..
well take care ya..

OMG another nice song in my playlist...." Ryou Kunihiko - Menuet for EMMA...its from victorian Romance EMMA original soundtrack..an anime which my sis loved, its got victorian design clotheings and all and a sweet love story.

okok back
hahaz hmmm well i wonder i everyday sms people... am i annoying them LOL
well i belief communication is important among even frens =)

okok
that about it all for these 2 days..
reminder to self.. prepare IN4 final written, PLEASE SUBMIT AND EMAIL IPD2 REPORT..

well be4 i move on to the topic i wanna talk about today..
was pretty upset by some things my frens said...
well wads it with money... does everything really revolve round it?
cant someone do sumtin for the sake of doing it or believing it wad his doing?
i look at them i wonder.. if everything is about money... wad is ur objective in life?
ya talk of money like ya haf plenty but then u do nothign to achieve them...
ya say the gov owe ya money... fine... i noe u got some miracle medicine or sumtin... but then..
nvm... i'm no one to judge anyone..
i do wad i like when i like, when i feel its rite..

okok enuff of all those unhappy tots...
hmmm well kinda wanna talk about 2 things today... two things that always clash wif each other..
friendship and love...
well to anyone who read heres.. juz wanna noe... wads a fren to u?
me a fren is someone whos always there for ya, someone who watch over ya, someone whos there to give u company be it sorrow or joy.
a fren is someone who in need turns to ya and treat ya like ur worth something to them be it when in need or not. someone who cares, and not there to use u and forget u...
well thats wad i think, well most of it.
wad ys opinion?

now wad is love?
wad is loving someone?
to love someone is to be there for the someone when they need ya, support them physically, emotionally. someone who loves and care bout ya, watch over ya but never possesing ya(ya noe wad i mean) love is never about the physical things.
well if u look closely, doesn;t that sounds exectly wad a close fren do?
so wad exectly is love? someone tell me pls...
well i do believe in finding soulmate all that... but one can never be too sure...
so all in all.. as long as u feel its wad u wan, u noe its wad ya wan..but always be clear of tot be4 jumping to any r/s
ask urself, wad is this feeling u feel about someone..
is it a spur of the moment?
wad is it that u wan from her/him
is it a physical thing?(if it is then u better think twice and DUN wreak another person heart...and if its someone close to me or someone i care about.. i wont let u off)
well i'm sure most of u noe wad i mean...

personally i feel... to love someone is to be willing to let the person go in search of their own happiness if that happiness is not u...
dun hold her back and maintain something that was once sweet that now turn sour...
would u wan to be wif the one u love and care about juz to be physically there, see her suffer and cry everyday? if so then ur worst then a beast.
but letting go is always the hardest thing to do...
well me got no rite to say much bout love... never really been in one thats like that..
thiniking back... it both breaks my heart and feel sorry for myself for being so foolish..
but still even though my was terrible... i learned not to blame her... not to hate her, for loving someone ya ask for nothing in return, not even her being wif ya..if she chose to go.. then let her go..
some of u might say i;m useless.. fine i am... i shall not deny.
say wad ya like but i still believe strongly in the principle that leads me to who i am today.

well another issue bout frens and love is that it always clash..
like wad a classmate scold me about..
if ur too close to a gal, even if shes ur close fren, the bf wont like it...
he told me... the thing about being a fren is not to do everything for her...(thats sumtin i dun belief) he said, if u do everything then wads the bf for?
well thats why i feel love and fren is almost the same thing
well if by helping a fren it makes the bf hate me then so be it...

i think thats enuff for today.. too long le...
opps so sry...
i shall end here..
logging william

loving someone is to be willing to let them go in search of their own happiness even if its not u.

8:16 AM