-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

today... woke up early went down to harbour front to meet my poly frens to support their I&E...
well i was abit late so i decided to wait for kanwei and yw then go meet the rest...
lol by the time we reach the beach...
its 12 le... imagine meet at 10 become 12...
anyway play captains ball...
well though my back hurt... i dun belief i cant handle the painand let it limit me...
play a few games...
then went for a swim...
well noticed that my training kinda payed off...
i can now swim all the way out sea and treadwater...
and come back...
well after that... we buried yw...
lol actuclly alot of funny things happened... plus was really glad to see kanwei again...
well this whole week like nv see him...

anyway after that we head back... ate at yoshinoya...

oh i forgot... sg really a small place LOL
wen i reached there...
i saw my mei.. wanting =P
was quite a surprise..
then after that half way thru met clara...
then while on the way back...
met peiyi and jiali from the china trip LOL
peiyi was the gal who during the trip we had this scandal thing going on and i;m suppose to be her little boyfriend
lol

was really glad to see them....
and it really feel good when they see ya and go like "HEY LITTLE BOYFRIEND!!!" lol
i mean like wow at least someone excited bout seeing me =P

anyway after "dinner" we head home..
decided to take the bus... as it takes really long to get home...
i juz wanna get away from the things around me... and juz slowly think things thru...
well lucky me... there was this gal sitting in front of me.. very quiet innocent looking... kinda remind me of the first time i met my ex...
well her being there kinda make me feel calm...
slowly i tot thru my things...
and well... i feel lighter now...
well if sumtin can be done then do it... if not... then let it be... but of coz everything can be done...
i shall start my mugging for my exam.,.. i dun belief i cant make it... i'm too far in to fail now...
well plus i tot thru some things i said be4 and some things i did be4...
well maybe my uncle was rite wif one thing... everyone has ego... whether u contain it or not...
well i guess i let my ego took over me...
i wanted so much to impress the people around me...
so much to get the attention of the people around me...well sometimes i really feel alone even though there are people who cares bout me...
well i'll keep a watch on my ego then...
oh som things i came across... while looking out the window... i see people cycling and running...
old young, injured and even wif disability...
it kinda makes me feel disappointed wif myself...
well being held down by my back injury...
well from today on it aint gonna stop me from doing my best in everything,... be it sports or studys...
if it hurts..,. then i shld push myself further...
if i dun die from it i will sure benefit from it...
if i am to be a examplary soldier/sailor or in short servicement... i haf to bring myself to the next level....push my limit to a place where others will haf a hard time catching...
well i noe even though in sg its a waste of time to serve... but its my interest and passion... be it the job suck or wad... or ya can call me government dog i dun care... i do wad i think is rite...
if the country needs me...i'll volinteer myself for service... be the first to be on the frontline... even if i dun make it back... then by that time... i hope those who think i was a dumb person to haf signed on... pls reconsider.. for if i'm not there then u stand no chance where u are now...if i dun go to hell who will...

i'm gonna force myself to cycle everyday... and train... if i am to be the best.. i need to be good in both physical and mental... that means physical health and knowledge...

well i noe all this souns corny... but wadever ya think... as long as i feel its rite i'll do it...

i was foolish over and over again.. unwilling to let go of things that i really wanted and loved... but like wad people always say wad do i noe bout wadever i am feeling... i'm still a inexperience young fellow...
the highest level of loving someone is to let them go... i shall bring myself to that level...

if i were to die one day i wan a death worthy of enuff to be remembred...

well enuff bout all that...

i shall end here.... really appreciate the people who been there for me...
i noe i'm not worthy of ya all... but still thank you....

william

5:56 AM