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Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

well itss 3 days into the new year... and my last post was the last day of 2007...
guess i shld do a little already...
be4 i go on... i little reflection of the year 2007...
technically been a great year... though at times felt really horrible...
i would say best moments would definately goes to meeting some really true frens.
and well worst moment... hmmm nah i think i'll leave that blank... dun even wanna think bout it at all..

well the new year 2008... for me had a pretty bad start...
everything is juz screwed up screwed up...
first day of sch today... i flunged one of my papers(even though my teacher manage to give me a pass...) and well didn't do as well as i expected in the other paper...
i wanted to do well for it... tried... but as usual i failed...
then nvm... after sch decided to satrt a running regime for myself...
and went for a little campus run...
and my lower back suddenly came back to visit me again...
hurt like crap...
i'm so screwed... if its here to stay... i think i juz wreak my future already...
suppose to see a specialist today... but then... it didn't hurt le so i tot it was okie le... plus i had some sch work to attend to i decided to cancelled it...

anyway something good actuclly happened today...
besides seeing all my mates again..
during my VCN lab ..
the lectuerer gave us new exercise...(as in no stepds given, more of self exploration and solving..)
manage to do the first one wif ease...
then the 2nd one had a little trouble but then managed to solved it myself...
even the lectuerer had to take solution from me...
first and only to solve it...
learned something today... that i'm glad...

i think countlesss nite sleepless nite... is actuclly starting to kill me...
head hurt like crap..
eye sore..
body is like dead tired...
i think finally i will slp well tonite...

well looked at myself in the mirror...
i no longer noe who i am...
looked back on myself...
i totally lost control of myself...
felt like a lost soul...
but then all is not lost...
i think i really haf to thank a very special fren of mine...
juz when i lost my mind... over some things...
she was there to hear me out and cheer me on...
i actuclly felt bad... especially noeing that its gonna be a busy time for her...
i'm really sorry for being such a burden...
well i'm trying really hard to juz let things go bahx...
trying...
and i promise i wont drink that much le...
i give ya my word...
even though drinking kinda makes me feel a little better...
i shall not make it a habit..
a really big thank you...
it really makes me feel alot better when i noe at least theres someone who actuclly cares bout my existence(hmmm sounds kinda selfish)
i'll remember wad ya said de...
and in time hopefully things will be on a better track..

all the best to all ya work and test ya..
take care
william

time to make a change,... again...a change for the better and not a change to get away from reality...

8:10 AM