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Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

hmmm decided to reedit wad i wrote juz now...
well i think this blog need to brighten up abit... else people will all start to think me as something le...

anyway... today did nothing much i guess... was suppsoe to study for my test and well after a nite of studying and got nothing in... i fell aslp...
i was soo darn tired.. that everything else wasn;t important anymore...
slpt till 1pm..
but then was suppose to be at sengkeng at 9am.. LOL
missed that.. so after that afternoon i head to sch.. try to memorise or understand as much as i can from the book.. well i didn;t exectly memorise the answers(as in the queastions and answer list on the net.. dunno why maybe for this time i wanted to test my knowledge or luck.. or juz seeking doom..

anyway... off i went.. and i think i really flunged it this time..
nvm that aside... its my consequences for not working hard enuff..
after that went for dinner at vivo
had carl's junior as RH wanted so much to eat it... lol he even wanted to try up to 3 extra meat LOl
imagine ordering super star with 2 slice already LOl
ok then head down to sengkeng wif zw.. picked up some supplement..
we kinda share so as to test while not pay the full cost.. and GNC over price things like crazy...
best juz get from supplier

then head home le..

well be4 i go on.. juz some tots about sch...
somethings my fren said was rather rite...
its no wonder she cant trust people...
well honestly even i cant really trust people... thats why groupwork always screws up...
well some people they stick to u when ur good and well when u lag behind they jump boat..
some people act one way think another...
some even say one thing and do another...
trust is sumtin one gain from time with anyone.. and well once u abuse that trust..
its hard to even gain that back..
u trusted someone once and he abused it...
can u trust him to not abuse it again?
though deep in me.. everyone whos a fren to me no matter wad.. i always try to think the best of them as possible.. its hard for me to hate or to think negative of anyone unless they really did sumtin..
but at times u do feel people are juz using u...
are they wad they seem?
u wonder...

well talking bout that... i noe my bro is having some problem..least i notice
and well sad to say but respectably i noe nothing of it...
though i noe he cares for me and treat me as his own..
juz wanna let him noe i;m always here for him ok...

okok anyway back to today...
well some happy things i wanna share...
first my this close fren msn me today.. well haben hear from her at all lately..
shes been busy tutioning people...
well take care and see ya soon.. if u can that is.. dun wan u to get into a fight wif him over seeing me or wad...

and one of my dear classmate...
well she suddenly juz thanked me half way while chatting wif her..
for helping her wif the project and all..
well i cant juz leave u to die can i...
juz glad i could help...
and of coz happy to noe i am appreciated..

well other things.. i played gunbound wif zw..
omg retro.. but hey its all fun and games...

well other then that..
nothing much le...

oh juz wanna add a few more things..
to my fren.. well today haben really heard from ya anything or wad.. well hope u are well.. coz seldom get silent from ya de...
muz be busy or wad.. shall not disturb ya.
lol but kinda not used to it or scary.. suddenly silent.. i tot i did something wrong or wad.. but i'm pretty sure of my actions...
so well shall not think too much..
hope ya are well =)

and watched sweeny todd.. well kinda downloaded..
very clear.. not the normal screener...
but this one is a copy they send for award valuation.. hehe i got a copy LOL
so its DVD or better standard..
love the show..
well watching it... something came to me..
i noe she'll love the show too..
dunno if she can watch.. but still noeing her.. she'll love it..
abit bloody wif al the throat sliting..
but then the singing is really nice.. and i really love the ending scne..
though sad ending..
and well bloody ending..
but the part he carried her and got his throat slit and bleed there staring at the wife he tot was dead.. and that he killed her without noeing..
i watched it twice le.. and i still wanna watch it..
for many reason..

beside that i got news that i might get attachment 1st batch.. if so i'd start april i hope..
well doesn;t atter much to me.. dunno why my classmates all so scared and wan 2nd batch..
i look forward.. learning oppoyunity.. and experience..
and of coz extra income..
well the tot of working made me rememebr sumtin i heard over the radio..
though the person is not working but studying oversea...
came back for holiday..
and well met some frens.. some gave him the warmth home feeling while other became strangers..
i felt sad for her/him when he/she said his going backand this time for a long time..
its like leaving but then though not for life but still leaving and losing things behind on the way..
i guess thats life..
but personally i really hate that..
i lost alot and well though i think and treasure them.. the memory..
i'd love to relive it all again..
the time when u got to noe people.. live thru some parts of ur life with them beside u..
and sad but saying goodbye not knowing when u'll see them ever again..
i hate goodbyes.. but when theres a hi theres always a good bye..

its 3am and i'm starting to worry... why hasn't my sibling and parent came back from some last min shopping?
hope they are well...safe journey home

well i feel this post is much better...
less of ranting and more of caring and showing ur love and concern...

with much love and care
logging..
william
happy CNY

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