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This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

lalala... i'm back.. missed me?
nah i doubt so....

hmmm well back at home, been away for the past 3 days
celebrated my dear fren de birthday..
well be4 we get to that..

hmmm monday... went ot sch,... didn't slp much... went sch study...
then went in for exam le
i was done in like 40 min out of 2h...
and guess wad the teacher dun let me go...
oh well... sat there burn time...
finally out,...
saw my other classmates and hmmm...
they seem to be like disappointed with the paper...
for me...
i cat say i will do very well..
but then i think i sure can make it...
i shall not hope too much but pray i make it...
theory... its either u noe or u dun...
simple as that.....
now that this is cleared time to worry bout friday paper..

BUT!!!
first... head over my dear fren de chalet there...!!
its her bithday today(i mean that day)
and as u noe, birthday is a once year year every year thing...
its not everyyear u turn the age u are... dun worry not hinting anything.. but still i mean..
its a very special day to the person mah...
even as her frens... its always nice to be there for ur frens for good and bad...
let them noe they are appreciated by u... let them noe they are there for u, and etc etc u noe wad i mean =)

well be4 we get to that.. a little bout the prezzie i prepared...
well i still think i could haf come up with something better...
but then.. i noe she likes some things and i try to forcus on those..
well some might say i'm a bad influence... buit well up to u all..
well i was the only one there who gave her liquor...
bought her jack daniels and together with a greeting card i got separately and of coz added a little surprise and all juz to make it even more special other then picking it myself...
hmmm and also the packaging..
well i at first wanted to get her soft toy.. or a mini one to add to the jack daniels... but then i remember her saying she haf alot and her mum aint gonna be please if she got even more hahaz
and plus i dun really noe which one she haf or dun haf..
so i styaed with the jack daniels idea... then wanted to wrap it in a winnie the pooh wrapper but then it looks kinda weird... so at last..
i end up wif wad i had..
i wrote some notes and nice greetings in the card, and took some time to brush up my pencil skill and drew a pooh bear pic to the card...
hopefully she likes that...hahaz coz well i aint beri good at present but well if i get present for people i wan them to noe that i put my heart to making, getting and even giving =)
really hope she likes it...

okok back to topic..
k off i went... down to the chalet..
stayed there slack play and bbq...
oh not forgeting the non-stop gambling that i lot everything and even owe people LOL
lots and lots of bbqing.. but not much of the drinking as i expected..
oh and absolute pear is abit weird in the taste and hard to put wif mixers..
but the bottle looks nice!!
=P

lol first nite alot of gambling!!!
hahaz... and a little unwanted heated encounter...
well cant blame my him.. but still i think that temper needs some tending too..
i'm sure when his in his normal mood, he'll understand but then at that moment,
well i didn't quite agree with the way it turned out..
but still let the matter rest and not make it any bigger then it is le...
well something i personally dun like is to..tio fire by people when all u did was gave a tot and concern and even care to the person...well my apology if we disturbed u, but we juz tot ya working tml then its best to haf a proper bed and all.. and the floor is rather cold and all that..
well anyway now that the matter its at rest le.. lets put it aside,

well the first nite, didn;t slp at all!!
ton thru it.. well upstairs is occupied..
talking bout that.. wahhh!!! u people good loh... suppose the plan was the birthday gal got one room and a big big bed to herself in the end u all occupy!!! LOL
so i ton thru the nite talking with her,
ya noe i kinda feel like a patient and shes the psychiatrist trying to talk sense to my already senseless life...
lol but still i really appreciate that, thank you!!

next day early morning, decided to call mac....
packed up abit, ate and start waking people and all this time round carefully...
and finally everyones up... those got thing de left le, then left few of us.. they chiong mahjiong while i slack around...
then later at one point i decided to go wif edmund go swimming...
nice weather and all..
and while we'r there we also talked and get to noe each other a little better
all the best wif ur plans for the future ya, if its NDU u wan.. Go for it!!!!if ya get in i think i'd see u more often next time le lol

then after that went back.. evening le, started fire and started cooking and all...
2nd nite more gambling...
i ton untill; like really late le, really cmi le... then decided to go up slp...
then well as usually i had a really hard time sleeping...
toss and turn... everywhere i turn i close my eyes i see things i dun wanna see...
think of things i wanna juz leave aside...
like feel very congeted inside cant slp...
toss and turned till few hours later, where javier came in... he also slping le...
he can really fall aslp fast LOL
manage to dooze off after a long while
next day i woke up like zombie...
then after everything we all headed back to our daily lives le...
time for me to chiong my study for the last paper

got home on my com oh shit... my sibling or somebody touched it and wreak havoc on it...
its filled with spyware, worm virus and trojan... everything...
zzzz
time to lock everything down..
thank goodness my files are alrite....

hmmm i guess that shld be all for now...

a little side note...
well though things didn;t go as well as u wanted it to...
least it worked out fine =)
and i really enjoyed myself...
so dun feel unhappy bout it le alrite...
its ur special day and i really hope u feel special then, noeing all ur frens truely are wishing ya =)
thinking bout ya and all that...
take care see ya soon...

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william

the heart feels sour when u say a lie to protect urself or ur own privacy.. or juz ur selfish tot of preserving ur own image....but when wad ever ya lied is true.. ya did wad u said u didn;t.. everytime ur heart will juz feel sour the moment ya say it..i noe its not my fault.. but still... i could haf not let it happen... guilty...

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