-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

time.. 3.33am... wow nice...
anyway same thing again.. aint slping... zzz
i think after my exam i better learn to catch some slp... else by the time my attachment comes i die...
anyway...
today.. woke up pretty early...
slpt pretty well the nite be4...
not many time i get to enjoy that..
ok.. woke up.. chiong down.. meet my fren at clementi,
went o buy toto...
well its my first time.. kinda made a fool of myself but hack... thx to my idiot fren.. purposely..
nvm i shall save the details to myself..

then head down to sch...
studied and talk cock with them...zw,nor,rh and kl
while studying got to find out something..
guess wad i recieved an email from sch regarding IAP(industrial attachment)
well i got FUJITSU ASIA...
i'm there as a network engineer assistence..
500 dollar 5 day a week 8.30 to 5.30
well i'm pretty okie wif the distance least its closer than sch..
then i found out something.. wah my fren kanwei damn sway...
he got IBM.. but.... at changi
he live at bukit panjang...
LOL good luck...
gonna attend a briefing on monday...
well today i'm feeling pretty positive...
told myself be4 i slpt last nite that i wan to change...
and i woke up wif an open mind...
feeling good. i'm looking forward to things and surpressing wadever unhappy tots i harbour in me...
i shall do my best even if in the end i still am meaningless and useless.. but least i tried..
well later will be my last paper for this sem le.. all the best... really hope to make it
after that,... its time to shred myself..
well lets use this 6 months attachment as a plan..
by end of it.. i shall make myself lean and mean..
for this once i'm gonna do something for myself..

hmmm besides that.. was talking to my sec sch teacher on msn,
well update her on how i've been and all..a little catching up =)
hahaz well she encourage me with some of the stories regarding her frens in the navy and all..
well as we all grow up we tend to understand things a little better than be4, learning from our mistakes and all..
well thinking back...
i was really a failure then not that i'm any different now but now at least i'm a little better...
hahaz if only i had realize the facts of life then..
i think life would haf turned out different..
for good and bad..
well cant say that now actuclly... coz we'r still learning...nv will stop..
some people till now their thinking and mindset and concept is still all wrong.. and over the place, believing wad they feel and belief now to be the rite choice the true thing to do.. but is it?
if i am not certain...
how could one say to another my life revolve around u??
well if u say that.. think again.. is that obsession, or are u desperate in possesion of her/him?
did ur tots blind ur actions cozing grave consequences that not even u or even god can erase..
honestly i'm still doing alot of mistakes.. that i still think i shldn;t haf... though not grave or wad..
but still... i muz keep my tots clear and my action firm... do wad i believe and of coz logically it haf to be the rite choice... i cant afford to pull the people around me down with me juz be coz a spur of the moment cause me to think things all over the place and say things i didn;t wan or mean..
well maybe wad my fren said bout me was rite.. i'm juz not emotionally strong...
but hey i'm learning ;)
hopefully one day i will become wad people will be proud of... a better self...

i think i'll end here today..
be4 i go...well at the moment.. thinking of some people, some frens and all...
its okie if they are silent in my life... the fact that i take effort in remembering them and thinking of them.. i shld be happy with myself..

take care people..
pray for me...
wish me all the best...

william

11:31 AM