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This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Monday, March 03, 2008

Day 1 at IAP....
Fujitsu Asia PTE LTD
SPBU Enterprise Network Integration Division...
well the day started wif me waking really early... more like nv really slping...was thinking bout some things...
well nvm that..
well i woke up prepare.. and wore my best i ever wore in my life so far...
everything went well...
went on to haf breakfast wif my parents and sibling.. send them to sch..
and off i went to work.. raffles place...
time strikes 9am..
and i was in the office...
and guess wad...
the person was so darn surprise to see me..
first we were really early...
2nd i was in the wrong place....
damn the sch.. gave me wrong info...
mine was suppose to be at 20 Science Park 2
zzzz nvm after sorting things out... of i went wif norvin....
honestly was pretty disappointed to noe that i got post away from raffles....
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but oh well i reached the place and it wasn;t too bad....
looks really nice... juz darn ulu...
waited like darn long be4 we met up wif the HR...
Cindy..
shes a really nice person.. funny also... =) kinda lighten up the enviroment.. especially wif norvin around..... u noe that bugger...
nervous or wad.. start doing stupid stunt hahaz.. like practice his "song bank" my god everyword i say he can come up a song by any artist...
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okok settle the administration... LOL lots of joke around...
and got to our DIVISION...
wow got my own desk.. and my very own name on it.. =) though it had nothign else...
got to see the director and all that even my seniors were there... as partime rather then intern....
then settle down...
got our own laptops... OMG i haf nv seen any laptop in any worst standard LOL
oh well can use can le...
zzz OMG so many restriction !!!!
well first day started wif us tagging stocks .... well its somewhat relavent...
coz we'r tagging routers and all that...
and i found out SP is starting a networking course like ours.. and WOW!!! the amount they buy is insane zzzz alot more then my sch... hmmm muz go back sch complaint liao LOL
zzz well it aint easy job tagging...
zzz alot of hard work carry and all that...
but we got thru that...
lunch time.. zzz omg the place is so ulu that they got sshutter bus for lunch everyday that bring u go different place eat LOL
ate at clementi...
back to office.. more tagging and last hour my senior tell us to take a break... dun ping ming... LOL coz they only pay u 500 LOL
well then later went off... knock off le...
went down raffles meet some frens and head to eski...
and hey to u noe who u are... all my drinking buddies hahaz.. next week or the week after eski got some dance event... =) it'll be cool...!!! 1 for 1 all nite =)
i'll pass ya the details when i get hold of it...
i had 1 glass...
catch up abit wif them.. then chiong down city hall meet my classmates...
had dinner... well this group was really nice.. well compare to some 2 face people... this group is purely frens =) no second tots...
then later after dinner they head off marina square...
i went up swiss hotel.. 66th floor =P
meet my parent..
they celebrating their 20th anniversary lol they book a dunno wad room.. but the hotel found out its anniversary.. they gave free upgrade to VIP suite.. OMG its damn nice,... really damn nice...
first got balcony...see the city view.. then the place got like rooms and rooms... toliets everything LOL all seperated LOL its like a house...
and they got those mini jack daniels, sminoff and all that... damn cool...
its juz damn nice... i noe wad to do if i ever get attach and maybe on some occastion....wad to plan le...
well its juz me bah.. though i think i dun stand a chance in these bgr things... but its really no harm dreaming the things ya would do...
well if i ever find my one true love... i'll bring her to the nicest place to dine, to sight see, to walk, to feel, even to rest... i want her to see the best this curel little world can offer...
i dun belief in cannot be done.. everything can be done if u put ur heart to it...
well beside my one true love i'd really wan all my frens to see them too.. to enjoy them...
well dun care wad u think.. i'm the kind who treasures my frens really alot.. i feel their pain, their suffering when they are down.. i feel their joy when they are happy... basically understanding and putting myself in their shoes to noe them.. to be there for them...they dun need someone to juz be there... and disappear like the passing wind...rather they shld haf someone who would be there for them always... i guess different people got different thinking...

back to my story... well its juz amazing...
the room and all...
hmmm come to think of it... their 20th anniversay...
wow then.. they were about my age...
haha kinda envy them.... lol
well one day i;m gonna be like them... bring y other half to europe for honeymoon, stay and be there for her thru thick and thin...
ya noe juz thinking bout it makes me think and feel tht how much i love them... no matter wad happen between us and all... i really happy they are there for me... with me...

well thats about it i guess.. time to get to bed soon
tml chiong again =P

hahaz be4 i go.. some tots..
well... currently thinking of a number of frens... one i was suppose to meet for breakfast... but didn;;t pls i got posted else where.. its been a really long time since i see her.... hope u are well.. bleh...she dun read here de... sad... hahaz nvm next month shall jio her out for dinner...

well the 2nd person that i'm thinking about.. is my dear fren =) hey hey how are u today =)u noe who u are... hahaz well weird but true i everyday wont fail to think bout ya(and NO i;m no obsess or wad..) juz wonder how was ya day and how are ya.... ya noe like care for a person like that.. though i noe i'm juz an ousider sometimes hahaz but still cant stop people from caring rite hahaz...

well some other people include... one of my class mate... well called her wanted ti meet up and all.. and found out she had blisters and bleeding.. awww poor thing... hmmm take care alrite.. catch up soon hopefully after IAP can same class... partners =) lol

also thinking bout an unexpected fren.. well worry bout her... but well i can do nothing but worry... zz hahaz...

well there are also others whom i'm thinking and wondering about... including my bro and well those around me... if u treat u as a true fren u;ll noe who u are... =)
and hey to u guys out there,... dun feel bad if i nv state ur names hahaz.. well ya dun expect me to list out ya all as well rite LOL
well basically the people i care about u noe who u are.. the closer u are to me, the more i feel that ur a true fren... the more i care about... i dun wanna lose them.... welll i only haf a handfull of such frens and u noe who u are...
well not that the rest dun matter... juz well some are closer u noe...
damn man everytime i talk bout this i feel bad.. and everyone de face start poping into my mind zzz all the sad face saying wahhh william u good u dun care bout me zzzz omg i really think too much...

well maybe thats why i cant get to slp... always thinking bout people LOL
personal things, sch things, family things, frens thing... well everything can be sloved and i wan to solve everything... i wan to become who people will be proud of happy to be with... and proud to tell people about... i dun wan to be that failure i always had been...
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hmmm something interesting my sis told me...
she said any sacred book like the bible or the teaching of buddha and all that...
well u hold the book, belief and pray... and open a random page,... chances are u'll find some enlightenment for ur prayers.. well u might say its juz ur mind.. but well its always nice to haf a special being the belief... the feeling that someone watches over u to seek relief and refuge..
yes i may be a free thinker... but i too need to turn to sumtin to clam myself... sadly i usually cant turn to anything or anyone... not that no one care.. juz i feel bad burdening my troubles to others...
anyway... i flip to a page and it says.. purification of self...
the phrase that catch me most..
is "...cause and effect..." well the others not important as of for now...
every thing has a cause and an effect...
belief that..

k lah enuff crapping le i guess everyone also tired of me le....

wif many many loves for those who i care about.. especially some of u.. u noe who u are...
noe that ur alwys in my tot, my prayer(well not really religigously but yea u noe wad i mean)
i may not be a good person, or someone who could give everything and all that...
well the only thing i can offer is a true frenship and my care and concern...

logging william
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i think i'm abit psycho today bout all this frens and feelings thingy... hopefully in the emss no one will mis understand me bahx... =)

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