-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

once again updates...
this time is more about the past few days bahx say yesterday?
technically yesterday we in office had nothing much to do except tagging...
and learned some interesting thing bout hardware upgrades and all that..
after work we kinda was suppose to meet jason and group to sing...
but then there was a misunderstanding somewhere...
and in the end we watched leap year(we as in me, north, wake, liying, and yingwei)
it was a pretty nice show... okie i would say, honestly one of the better ones of the local movies..
though the sequence abit expected and the ending was alaos expected...
but well i would recommend people who are really erm desperate or upset wif love to watch it...
theres some piloshophy in it that i think would benefit...
and lots of qouatation from people...
talking bout that, i read sumtin in a mag that if u wan to develop ur brain or simply put, exercise the brain.... they recommend reading shakespears works..
this is because, in his works or in his words, things aint juz simple as in wads is said and understood..
rather it requires ur brain to work in reverse to understand the meaning of the sentence..
so with that i'm pretty interested to try my hands of some..
some books i'm actuclly looking forward to read, shakespears works, romance of the three kingdom, cisco lan switching(my manager recommend it saying 20% of it can help u last at least 5 years in the industry...juz curious) and some other....

okok anyway back to yesterday...
afterthe movie, we kinda meet up wif jason and pp to head down to pay a surprise visit to wenqi at her working place..
well i bet shes surprise to see us...
company her do closing then we head for a dinner...
well that kinda brings me to my next topic but i sahll come back to this in a while...

after dinner i took a bus and went down to siglap to meet my dear fren and javier =P
well comapny them for dinner, and we kinda chat...
and well another was there.. which kinda makes the place a rather tense enviroment... but wad the heckk...
ya cna look all ya wan.. we do wad we like when we like and as the way we like it,..
for me... i'm pretty neutrel to everyone... but then.. even though some things people do tat really i cant stand it.. i wont openly do anything...
but unlike some people...
or peoples i shld say... kinda reminded me of another..
who say one thing and do another...
well that also kinda link to my topic i wanna talk about...

well i'm gonna talk bout a very general but complex yet simple thing call love...
the many different face of it...
well to start off...
to a certain someone dunno if u are reading...
well.. saying isin't the thing to do... and worst forcing is not either...
how can u demand anothers love and deny them of their own love for ur own selfish sake?
all u think about is u love her u need her, but ever tot about whether is that the same for her/?
u say u can give everything, but can u?
who are u to say?
u cant handle urself and u want to take care of others?
please consider the fact that love is 2 person thing
not juz u only...
u may or may not haf realise it...
but still some things u do... to u it may be a show of affection and all... but to the other it may be a very offending actions....
and seriously if u not realise, wad u do can land u in jail...
and one more thing to add...
c'mon 2 years inside aint something to be sad about... it juz goes to show ur true face...
so pls consider this...
u are not the bf u haf no rite to demand that either...
honestly how much do u noe bout her?
so please think thru this one sided feeling of urs and please stop freaking haress her life like the way u do it now... ever wonder why ya feel shes being different.? honestly is she different or haf u changed.. changed to someone who shes starting to grow to detest?
well do urself a favour and wake up tom reality...
the way u do things... well it worries the people around her, and it lowers the standing u haf in others.

to my dear fren, please take good care of urself and not let this impact ya too much... its a long time already and its about time it concluded...
lastly rest!!!!! omg u starting to zombie liao....

one more thing... TV argh TV......
ya noe it really worries me sia seeing ya liddat....
understand how ya feel and everything, been there be4...
but be strong gal, ya haf a bunch of frens who really thinks and care about u =)
so dun ya feelalone alrite..
i noe currently u haf many many unanswered question, why this and that...
but well i guess we cant answer for ya, leasti noe i cant and i dun haf that rite...
but we'r here to walk with u thru this dark(least i consider that in this case) time..
giving u the support u may or may not need to help u find the answers to all ur question.
well i shall not ask/force/demand tat u muz break up or wad though that is really i feel the rite thing to do... but still u haf to decide for urself... and dun make a decision u will regret later on in the future... leave no space for regrets.
personally my own view is... well i guess u already noe from my sms.
since he dun cherish u(even though he says he does) dun safekeep the trust u place upon him,
abuse ur the faith u place in him and abuse the people u cared about around u... i feel ya deserve someone better...and that he dun deserve someone like urself...
u are a very special person, unique in ur ways(notice that since i first noe ya, and till noe i hardly find any similar)
it is very unfair to ya that this haf to happen... happen to someone as innocent, cheerful, like urself...
but be strong gal... take it as a learning jouney..
and last of all be happy always...

to the him in this situation, if u ever come here i suppose...
well u may not haf liked me, trust me neither haf i maybe due to some misunderstanding somewhere... i noe u called me names behind my back and all....
and well for the first time.. i shall stay very calm in this...
well honestly then we may haf our quarrels and all... but when that all got settled... trust me i wasn;t really happy bout it as in the ending.... but still i tot u were indeed better... a better man...
and after like some times i really decided to give ya chance to proof urself, and not judge u like i did be4... even on that trip i really starting to think u were indeed better as in character and all that... but sadly i didn't noe wad happen then... honestly i didn;t noe alot of things then... even the fact that the whole 3 person thing was already settled....
even in recent even i really was neutrel to ya already...
but u.... u disappoint me... and honestly i really hate u for wad ya did...
so if u still haf some sens in u, go reflect thru ur own actions and honestly i'm sure u noe wad is needed now..u can give wad ever excuse u haf.. but wad is done is done... like i always said... DUN do sumtin that u noe u will regret... or did u not understand that the truth will be told one day?
honestly.... now... well dun think i'll ever change my idea of u anymore...u ruined ur own name by ur actions...
u can say wadever about me as u like i dun mind go ahead... but then... u think ur better off?
well we'll noe who has the last laugh bahx... people like u always think u haf everything can give everything but honestly wad do u haf?

personally myself... after all the things i gone thru... i haf build myself a career, a rather constant education, a rather strong future.... character wise... well i am who i am, people noe me as i am...
i dun haf to show faces of me... they noe wad kind of a person i am... not perfect but least i'm not as rotten....
so to anyone who thinks and say that they can give and provide wad others cant... pls think again... i meant people around our age...
we dun noe wad we haf or will haf...
even i myself dun consider that i haf much to give...after all the things i achieved...

so that concludes wad i wanted to say...
to the people who deserve it... take good care of yaself and be strong, be happy always...let go and let time heal ur hurt that u suffered and in due time the rite one will come(well to every it concerns, u noe who u are)
to the people who deserve nothing at all reflect, repent, u may not ever get acepted by the people again but least down the road in life u noe ur a changed man and rebuild ur own life...
dun destroy wad is already lost... rather... let go and let time bury the wrong doing that u did...

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william
a pretty long post i guess.....

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