-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

update once more...
well things beginning to pick up once more...
though i still feel kinda lost.. but lets juz try to maintain this...
been doing alot of thinking bout wad my fren told me...
well i guess its true that one haf to realise whos their real frens and whos juz a passerby in their life?

well i'll still be there and help those in need bah... but then if they really dun appreciate then so be it... theres a limit to ones chivalry...
well neither am i rdy to become wad i was last time.. dread....dreaded by people...

well currently mind still in a blank.. but well like wad wake say...
take the time to reflect loh...
i shld think where i wan to go...
wad i wan in my own life...
i cant life my life for people forever... coz they wont stay by me forever.. no matter how i wish they would...
i guess the first thing i shld learn to do...
is to catch enuff slp...
which i'm getting along pretty okie.. though still got nitemare and all but its subsiding..
next major thing i haf to find back is confidence...
i was once full of it.. till i gave it all away and lost it...
these will be the first 2 major thing i need to find back..
in addition... i guess i need to learn to be determine once again?
well i noe this all sound really err weird...
but well when u gave it all away or haf it ripped out of u...
u feel like u haf nothing left...even though scientifically it cant be proven...
ya really need to grow them back...

as for goals and dreams...
my dreams is still to fly to be a pilot.. though it seems like that will nv happen...
but well no matter...
wad i need to do now.. is to achieve my diploma first..
followed by when i enter the service wif the navy... i wan to get into OCS... i was told that i could try... i still stood a chance even though i;m tied down..
with that.. i hope to get a scholarship for uni...
career wise thats wad i currently aim for bah...

as for wad i wan in my life..
well it would be nice to find my special someone,
i'll prove to the person that i am someone who she could trust, depend and build a future with..
in the distant future.. to be a good father(thats if i ever find my half) to nurture my children as well as i can..,
learn from my mistakes and pass the knowledge on.. and not let them learn the way of life on their own in the cruel world.. well at least prepare them enuff?
well thats all still to early to say,...

to be a good fren,
a good bf,
a good husband,
a good father.

to be a good leader,
a good colleague,
a good employee or employer

well besides that.. i also really would like to change my physique ...
i got to drop my weight and fat percentage...
well knowledge and advice would be appreciate...if ya any pls dun hesitate to let me noe..

its a tough road to walk...
but i shall not give up...
its either i finish it or i die trying...

well i guess thats wad i wanna write today....

i shld get to slp....
wake up early wake up fresh tml...

loggin..
william...
tml will nv be a brighter day... however, it'll be an opportunity to do improve and do things better...

well really haf to thank my frens for believing in me true or not doesn;t matter...
i will try my best ya, kick my bad habits and reinstate myself back to who i was or even better who i will be..

hmmm side track...
something i learn today...
bout CISCO CSS 11500 series swtich...
CSS = content service switch
well rather then the usual mac address, this is more of a layer 4-7 device i think..
uses IP address and port(:___)
shall read up more and write in my report =)

good nite people to those whom i haben seen a long time.. really miss ya all and always thinking bout ya all =)

9:03 AM