-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.
Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
+ zazooosg@hotmail.com
+ 08/10/1989
+ Libra
Monday, April 28, 2008
back to blog bout my dreadful boring life =P
well be4 i begin... hahaz this update was kinda more for my dear fren at china hahaz =P
well me now a days like always no mood to update.... moody over alot of things.. stress over some things.. upset over other things.... hmmm wad can i say =P i'm abit more sentimental or wad u call emotional.... hahaz....
anyway.... to my dear fren... how haf ya been? really glad to hear ya voice again over the phone after so long...quickly finish and come back singapore okie.. then we can hang out again liao.... zzz been really busy lately... work work...
honestly i think i lack slp liao =P plus some times i cant get to slp.... so hmmm juz made matter worst....
anyway... heres na little bout wad i've been up to =P
attachement start... work work work work... hahaz.... as for wad i do at work? its confidential... i'd haf to kill u if i tell u... LOL jkjk tagging(scanning and sticking warrenty stickers...), kenna test theory and practical by my manager.... tio attached to my engineer at acsi.. which later tio PS by him (coz his wife give birth) and i kinda sit int/took over... now that his back i'm still here....
lol anyway talking bout that... hahaha happy!!!! =P i solo solved the boarding sch side de wireless access problems =P its pretty fun when ya get to know stuff ya dun.. and manage to solve things ya dun expect to solve....
okok enuff bout work....
as for life.. been boring... hanging out after work wif classmate dinner and all that.... hardly got chance to hang out much wif anyone.... cut back on the drinking le....
still single unwanted... hmmmm more or less same as always hahaz....
hmmm i think i shall write till here.... be4 i get to all my emo parts hahaz...
to my dear fren.. take good care of urself there alrite!!
we all miss u here.... and remember dun skip meals wor!!!!least haf sufficient... =)
logging william
7:41 PM
Monday, April 21, 2008
update update...
currently at office, ps my fren he doing tagging i here typing my blog...
but hey serve him rite =P lol he ji tao slack de loh, throw all the major order to tml..
juz becoz he tml not in office...
oh well dun really bother me much...
i've got other things bordering me worst than this so yea....
anyway been really really busy this month...
work work work...
and also not forgeting some play in between....
hangout wif classmates and all, watch loads of movie, sing k, etcetc
as for work.. been stuck at acsi for a long long time, dunno if things are okie le mah.. anyway my engineer will be back on thursday,
haben really been in the best of mood lately...
troubled by some things... alot of things actuclly but no point mentioning...
sleep wise.. manage to slp.. but then been losing them.. or begining to lose them...
starting to get a little physically, mentally and emotionally tired...
hahaz but wad to do got to live with it...
ya noe in this world there are just too many types of people with different mentality around..
some are good some are bad and some deserve to die...
some people tell me why do u bother bout these people so much...
honestly i could dun bother.. but i cant.. its juz me...
everything makes me think.. the more i'm close to the person the more i think about it...
i cant juz shut things out...
but recently i'm realy too sick of it to care...
hmmm nvm.. i dun feel like writing bout anything at the moment...
logging
12:01 AM
Friday, April 18, 2008
OMG juz notice nv blog for weeks le!!!
hmm shall do a quick update be4 my really detail long ones
well been soso lately,
ups and down...
well one thing for sure.. crap really happens at unexpected times...
it happened alot of time...
haiz.. think bout them i really dunno sad or angry...
nvm lets not touch that... =) now happy happy shall not touch on that...
hahaz why happy u asked?
well a few things bah.. first would be... finally after weeks get to chat wif my dear fren on msn.. been really busy lately..
i'm sure she also...
read her blog and well hahaz ya noe always.. read le mood seems to be better hahaz,
hear bout her life there and all...
to my dear fren dun worry i'mm be alrite de.. u also muz take real good care of urself alrite!!!
cant wait for ya return...
august argh august hurry hurry come come...
=P
other then that well my attachment wise... things are settling le on the on site...
offrice side... learned alot.. zz got a lab test from my manager in 2 weeks time DIE!! lol
hmmm any other further detail will be done in days to come...
logging that all for now... shall update more soon...
and might consider flaming some ******
hmm and start a world war again.. =P some people really deserve it...
hahaz anyway...
logging
william
to my dear fren.. take good care of urself alrite!!!
will be eagerly awaiting ur return!!!
=)
5:27 AM
Thursday, April 03, 2008
back to blog again....
still not in the best of health and mood....
Honestly.... stll coughing like mad... saw throat is improving, feeling feverish again...
here comes headache also....
mood wise... well... maybe i'm juz worrying too much....
but how can u not when u see the facts and the things coming at u?
however... worrying bout them might not be a good thing...
it blinds u from making the right choice and making mistakes...
dumb mistakes...
honestly feeling very dumb.. in certain things i did...
kinda regret also.... but no choice...
wads done is down.. blame it on i butt itchy...
but then... even though its dumb.. but the reason i had for doing them...
is for a good cause...
but honestly how good is it?
u do things becoz of others... because filial piety...
however, the things u do even though its for a good cause... might not be the best options to take...
gonna try to salvage wad i can...
wadever i waste is wasted... cant do much about it...
how much would u trust a close fren's close fren?
technically considered ur fren also...
his confidence in the things...
his assurance...
it juz makes u wanna risk it abit juz becoz of him...
but is it wad u wanna do?
the right thing to do?
honestly i dunno,...
its kinda like ur trying to weigh, ur trust in the person to how u feel about the things...
well but somethings i heard along the way.. indeed... i did learn sumtin useful...
sometimes a little risk is needed... everything has risk... but its juz i feel its not the rite thing for me....
i guess i'll put it on hold for now... wadever i put in i shall leave in...
if it truely works, well i might consider then...
honestly people... how many of u is seriously considering ur future?
i noe some people are.... i noe the person beside is isn't -_-"
well i'm in office u shld noe who...
wher would u end up... which path will u take...
will u succeed will u fail....
i've seen so much happen infront of me...
really i dun wan that to happen to me...
i wan to do sumtin...about it, about my life, my future... everything...
i wan control... but i feel limited... i feel the lack of control...
i think i'm a person who wans to command things command my life...
steer it... but then how capable am i?
honestly i think i'm the worst of the worst around... when it comes to capablility...
well a few possible plans i got now...
first off....
lets see wads the fixed path that i need to finish...
finish schooling... finish 2 years NS and additional 4 years of contract...
for me i wan wan to go uni....
haf a stable career, a slightly higher than comfortable life...
a few options in mind...
finish navy, save an amount, find a partner i can work wif.. start a business tgt...
or more ideal... try to get a degree.. by any means...(even if it means extend my contract..) den use the money i earn do investment...
or i got this feeling i want to finish wad i d/ need to do...
get a degree(by any means), at the same time freelance a job...u noe extra income(i intend to start now as i;m on attachment...
honestly this 3 months is suppose to be a really happy 3 months for me.. to spend and all..
but i haf no idea why... april i'll be so dried...
may... i'd probably be normal i guess....asame goes to june...blame it on me spending i guess... butt itching....nvm dun wanna talk about that... WHY THE FUK DID I EVEN AGREE TO IT ANYWAY.....common sense would haf tell me i dun haf the time to commit...
zzz a little maths for now... 3k -2k left 1 k dunno why left 700...
700-400 left 300 +1k +1.2k = 2.5k +500 = 3k - 1.2k = 1.8k +1k = 2.8k -400 = 2.4k / 3 = bout 800/mth...
a little error... 2.4k + another 500 = 2.9k / 3 = 900+....shld be sufficient...
hmmmm
2.4k + plus lets see some invisible money i cant get back... 2.4k + 2k + 5k + 400 = 9.8k(if i could get back all that is....)
lets see the potential money i used to owned... 150k + 18k + current.... bout close to 160k+ HAHAHA....
haiz... u can die in sg but dun fall sick....
if i indeed get that kind of illness i'd rather my kids let me die.. then let me see them suffer becoz of me... thats wad i'll do...
honestly i feel like shit... so as of today... any income and expense i will not only take note.. but make sure its worth it...
limit everything....
and anyone got any interest of well i dunno try to start a simple business?
honestly i wan to and no i'm not thinking of making sumtin like microsoft....
zzz juz u noe ideas that might work.... u noe use wad we learn to come up wif sumtin....
maybe put tgt ideas and things to set sumtin up....
i mean people come up wif their own blogshop and stuff... maybe theres sumtin we could do that is untap....might or might not work.,.. but worth trying.....
it might become sumtin big? no?
plans for now.... start saving... (been trying but i haf none.. not becoz i wan to spend becoz theres a need to give it away...to help the fam...)
ok i think i'll write till here....
nothing much to write le...
no point writing how i feel...
no one gonna care bout it.. i mean its me lol i shld handle it myself and not let people handle me....
things aint always go as expected...
i guess thats life.. learn to move wif it then....
logging william
i'm the dumbest person....(least i think so...) alive...
i dunno... i'm fugged up......
1:09 AM