-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Monday, May 12, 2008

back to update again, after much demand...

well honestly life now is quite rocky... up and down...
constantly changing moods...
at times feeling depress, at time happy, at times.. feeling insane.. and agitated...
seriously dunno wad is happening...

anyway been busy with work work and work...
yesterday finished a 40 page report...
went to couple of on site work...
tagging and lab test at office...
life is a bore honestly....

boring......

hoenstly i dunnow ad to write... been wanting to write for a long time now...
but at the moment abit moody... then really dunno wad i shld even update here....
kinda feel miserable...
especialy after some things i said.. things i nv tot i could express out inw ords..
things that no one around me knew that i was going thru and feeling...
a a simple thing of runnign away fromt he facts of this world actuclly can causeso much hell...
in the long run...
slowly u lose ur self, ur beliefs, ur principle, the thigns that u once trust... slowly losing ur sanity...
life jus simply become abit meaningless, without purpose, juz an empty shell...
wake up to no purpose, slep to no dream and goal...
juz nitemares at most..

life isn;t bad by itself... juz it doesn;t fel rite at all.. theres juz things stuck in me somewhere that i dun even noe...
everytime that happens.. ya juz feel like cutting urselof up to find it...

honestly feeling damn rediculous... but then even though wadever i think here i noe most are not rite.. but then it feels rite....
i look around me... who acutclly bothers about a person like me?
i got tones of frens but who really treat me as one honestly...
i give so much to people... helping listening anjd all that... but then hoenstly who am i to them...
part of me noes that that is not true... but another is beliefing it...
seriously i dunno wad i;m talking ... nvm i shall not continue else i feel worst...

anyway some things i really wanna say to my dear fren so far away...
hey dun angry le okie.. =) smile more.. dun let them ruin ur day.
if they bully u tell me i settle them for u tsk tsk..
remember take good care of urself...
no matter wad i;m going thru.. or wad i;ll wait for ya return and we shall hang out alrite!!
dunc are dessert or drink =P anything...
hahaz...
so far 2 months... liao...
2 months of no haf u around my hp quite silence =p
wellya take care of urself alrite...
miss ya lotz...
so sry if all this abit short or wad... but well its all from the bottom of my heart
juz a little not that good at the moment... so sry...,

zzz i;m going insane zzz

i shall end... tired and shoulder hurting

logging william

9:42 AM