-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.
Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
+ zazooosg@hotmail.com
+ 08/10/1989
+ Libra
Monday, June 30, 2008
good morning..
its a pretty good morning today,
good weather to be sleeping,
sadly i;m at work working =P
sianzzz....
7:28 PM
monday blues.....
moods pretty bad... hmm nah i would say down bah... juz blue...
feeling relaxed after showering, listening to some really soothing music that i didn't noe exist in my playlist.
sometimes being alone, shut up and juz sitting there as time fly by feels kinda good..
though it gets lonely sometimes and even boring..
but least it beats trying to find some company but then not noeing wad to say...
wishing for company but dun really haf any..
well sometimes juz having someone around ya juz makes ya feel a little better be it ur mood..
well i;m juz feeling sian probably..
sometimes ya feel like u got things to tell people but u juz dunno how to begin...
or worst ya dun even noe wad is it..
zzz
hahaha
well i guess its juz a need to socialize without people trying to overpower u with their vast knowledge be it they haf it or not.
i rememebr i used to talk to myself here in my own blog..
but kinda stop doing that...
partly coz maybe i try to venture out of this little world?
or that its no longer me around here...
well i noe my dear fren would probably be reading this..
well know this, i haben forgotten u at all =P
think bout ya at least once everyday.
hahaz feel bad not callin ya.
well hoenstly alot of time i really wanted to..
theres like juz things i wanna talk to u about..
be it pointless things or important things..
or juz plain sitting there and hearing ya talk bout ur life there..
hmmm let me noe when i could call ya and well talk =)
i got like 10 dollar more in the card to use LOL so no worries no limits
take care of urself alrite..
soon it'll be attachment end...
looking forward to it..
kinda not looking forward also lol
mix feeling bahc...
i'm tired..
i think i'll log here...
william
wonder am i in the tots of the people whom i think about daily... all the people and frens around me..hmmmm (better dun think too much)
7:30 AM
Sunday, June 29, 2008
i'm bored zzzz well for a change i dun think i'll be ranting much today...
hmm maybe i'll talk about wad i'm thinking of getting when my pay checks in...
=P
for a start i think i'll get a new sneakers, my low cut converse is tearing apart.
then maybe another leather shoe, mines is also tearing apart,
6:32 PM
So much in the head,
So little written out.
Doubt i ever will write them out truely
Or i would one day.
when things are really too much to handle.
So wad if i do?
doesn't really change much of anything at all.
if ur wondering.. i'm physically okie..
nothing is wrong and no i;m not sucidal.. or wad....
maybe juz feelin crappy?
why?
well i dun noe myself...
maybe u tell me..
enuff with that..
1 more montha and 1 week to go be4 my attachment ends...
i'll probably go for my poract 5 evaluation this coming sat...
zzz
i;m tired..
i think i'll go off for now
take care my fren..
missed ya alot..
waiting for ya return.
apologise for the lack of contact lately..
william
9:16 AM
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
haiz.. tired... lol
hmm habe update in a long while..
anyway same thing.. busy with work and all...
soon soon..
1 months 1 week plus to go.
=P zzz feel darn sleepy...
anyway to my dear fren..
so sry haben call ya in a while..
alot of time i wanted call, but looking at the time seem in appropiate..
hmm hope u are doing well..
hmm u work afternoon or morning? =)
take care ya..
a few update on myself..
pass pract 4 going pract 5 but need work on my plank first other parts no problem le =P
hmmm wad else?
nothing much.. brain dead.. too tired to think
thats all folks..
william
1:00 AM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
update again,
today moods not really that good...
its starting to worsen again...
everything seems to agitate me...alot...
work wise, i juzrush my work bahx, finish wad people do in days in matter of hours
its partly to occupy myself...
hmm not sure where the source of all this problems...
maybe its some things bahx...think too much nvm
anyway ytd, did a surprise call to my dear fren
hahaz was really nice to hear her voice again..
really wish she was here some time... shes one of the people i noe and feel that she honestly really cares about me.. cares about the frens and all =)
a really worthy fren to noe..
glad to noe shes fine =) better take care of urself there okie, not aroudn tow atch ur back =)
getting really tired lately.. dun woryy i'll make sure i'm alive and kicking =)
oh well i also dunnow ad to write le..
oh juz now went to meet my sec sch fren de group
its so nice to see all of them again, talk and all..
we had our bad times and good times...
hope we hang out more often be4 enlistment.. during enlistment and after =)
logging william
10:37 AM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
well haben been conssitently updateing...
oh well..
kinda feel like writing sumtin now.
anyway.. kinda notice somethings in my life,
ya noe they say... if sumtin happen in ur life, and u didn;t overcome it, ya just duck and cover and get over it,
it'll come back to u again and again till its overcomed...
i kinda believe that now..
especially when i keep seeing the same type of scenario happening over and over again..
as to wad scenario i shall not say....
anyway i little update on work...
well deal with SGH le, now being put back to ACSI again...
this time i;m touching the WCS..
oh well after this week, i guess i completed one entire cycle of wireless implementation le...
from site surveying(boring thing), to configuring to troubleshooting to management..
well as to wad and how the projects are dealed i shall not mention...
tml i;pm going anglo chinese to deal with the WCS server, to draw the map for it...
and well suddenly a problem came to me today..
zzz i'm suppose to put the AP to the map.. but how i noe which room is which?
CRAP!!
hahaz damn tired...
yytd, today all spend at CDC spend with my fren pei shan..
well went for lesson 1 and 2 ytd, BORING!!!!
then went for pract 4 today.. and although i totally screw up my plank and shalom.. i still passed, thanks to me last week doing well for my plank and shalom..
i think is the instructor bah.. [pressure..
wads the use of " FASTER!!!, OI u pass liao i wan see better performance next round" and juz stand there do nothing...
haiz .. prefer some other instructor bahx.. i think pei shan also agree hahaha
then after then me went my my thoery lesson 3 and 4... or was it 1 and 2 ... oh nvm...
met derek along the way.. and was stunt to hear some things he say...
well kinda stunt to hear it..
oh weel see how it goes bahx, as long as he dun become some maniac and post a threat to my fren its fine...
well its okie to like someone ya noe recently but to go to the extreme of jumping to the idea of going into a r/s even without noeing each other more?
is somewad desperate...
oh well told her about it... and she say not her type .. not interested =P
sry derek hahz..
HAIZ... sian argghhh... no more slot for RTT as of now...
dunno when is the earliest i can get...
shit lah liddat i;ll stuck at lesson 5 for ages liao months ...
sian diao..
after my attachment i'm gonna mass car and bike tgt and get them be4 i graduate...
i haf to...
zzz
well i think i better get some slp not in the best of health, or the best of mood...
feel somewad insignificant lately... amongst people...
hopefully.. i pray tml work goes well...
everything will work out de....
well still got somethings i wanna say but i guess i;m really tired...
another time bahx...
miss my fear fren...
actuclly miss alot of things bahx...
things got a little better when i stop caring...
but things got a little more alone too...
logging
william
9:02 AM
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
arrrggghhhh... been lazy not working out as much zzz feel like i;m getting fat omg how...
cannot cannot!!!
muz do sumtin about it...
time time!! no time!!!
nvm nvm... adjustment to my life...
NO MORE SWEET DRINKS!!! ARRGGGHHHHHH aim for plain water only!!!
err eat according to how much i need and juz intake 50% of wad is required to maintain my weight...
run run run!!!!!
hmm maybe i shld force myself to swim int he weekend as well...
lol
zzz
enuf bout that..
anyway lately been working working and working..
been attached at SGH for the time being to solve some things..
solve 98% of it le tml hopefully can do all..
so cool lah get to try on those surgical gown and go into OT(operating theatre)
well NOOO i'm not learning to be doctor...
hahaz
kinda troublesome though...
seen alot and learn alot from my attachment...
but i shall work hard and aim for better result coming end of attachment hahaz
to my dear fren..
so sry haben called ya in a logn while...
works really been busy.. had OT 2 times in a row le.. i mean overtime
zz well i'll call ya soon alrite
take good care of urself
hahaz looking for ward to this weekend lesson, hahaz finally my khakis can make it for lesson le and same pract as me!!! congrats... i knew she could do it hahaz
zzz kinda tired.. i shall save all the whining and log off bahx..
logging
william
9:08 AM
Friday, June 06, 2008
hey hey.....
back to update again,
lets see haben really been doing much lately,
work work work,
been stuck at SGH, and well seem like i;m hanging on quite okie there,
today kinda stayed home, alittle not well..
hmm yesterday knock really early hahaha shuuu dun tell my boss,
went queenstown library meet a fren, read book watch movie and all till evening meet up with another fren, we chill talk and play cards, had some drinks, basically wad we ususlly call chillin..
till nite time then went back..
the day be4 also went chill =P around orchard
then had coffee =)
hmmm well i guess thats most of it bahx..
well hmmm somethings to whine about be4 i forget...
AARRRGGGHHHH>>>>......
i need to start running... been telling myself but darn lazy...
zzz how how, anyone wanna join me motivate me?
hahaha
muz psycho myself c'mon its juz 5 miles a day... how hard can it be rite...
zzz but ahben been doing at all...
god i muz also muz cut my intake zzz
cannot let myself grow fat...
=P
i feel darn fat haha
muz work out lose weight.. =P
get nice nice bod haha
oh well... hmmmm kinda tired i think i go slp le..
logging
william
9:34 AM
Monday, June 02, 2008
another weeks pass.. and its monday again...
pretty boring.. sill stuck at sgh..
solve alot of the things le, but one of the accesspoint gave me a real headache zz
i hate to leave things unfinished but i guess i had no choice zz
oh well continue tml.
after work went to sch for some extra training with some frens..
pretty fun i guess.. haben train with them for a long while..
this month i shall start my running regime.. zz seriously.. 5 miles a day...
i'm growing fat zzz
well hoenstly things been improving but at the same time kinda screwing up too...
bleeding all over the place... haiz.. hopefully none of it is anything serious
plus i doubt so too..
i;m still alife =)
lately been quite all to myself..
didn;t really wanna bother myself with anyone much zz
feels as if i;m running away from some things.. kinda feeling..
but really jzu cant be bothered...not like anyone will really bother
oh well...
anyway.. at the moment i'm suppose to be sleeping.. but i cant slp...
kinda still feel bad and err kinda troubled bout my dear fren...
as in like.. she asked me to call her... i kinda called but cant hear much coz i outside...
by the time i got home its rather late.. tried.. but still.. no answer or wad..
i wonder wads wrong...
i;m so sry k... hmmm i call u tml? get back to me ya, if theres anything need me help or wad.. or anything let me noe k...
zz
i think i shall not say much.. kinda having some negative tots.. =P
hmm logging
william
9:05 AM