-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.
Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
+ zazooosg@hotmail.com
+ 08/10/1989
+ Libra
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
haiz.. another fucked up day,...
well good news... i passed practical 6 of my bike lesson...
2 more lesson to go,
to a live life fast and dangerous, gonna end it soon life
or juz another thing in my life...zz wtf am i saying...
woke up today to nothing..,no one...
rotted my day away...
went for bike lesson...
passed it came back..
tot of calling my family members... ask if they eaten, maybe i can pack somethings if they cook at home.. or pei them eat if out.. called house only my sis (3rd) at home...
called my elder sis... no answer zzz... call my dad... no answer...
as usual lah.. i;m not gonna ^&*(ing waste my time calling and asking them to on their phone...
if they wanna sign a line and waste it away by offing it.. so be it,.. i dun care...
well seems like no one bothers bout me anymore...
is that wad i wanted? wad i been trying to get all my life?
well if so.. why do i feel so different now?
no one rememebers me...or even think about me...
theres no longer wad i wan, wad i need...
yea sure.. wad i need i supply my self selling my life away...
that dun fuking mean that only rememebr me when u need me...
alot of people in my life are liked that...
i really hate that..
why cant i haf people who actuclly thinks about me or i dunno be there for me'?
i noe that sounds very unindependent like..
but it sure makes me feel a little better?
sometimes i think bout people... but seems like no one actuclly do the same for me?
who actuclly concern wad i feel wad i been thru and all that...
well i can tell u no one... no one at all...
well looking at a positive side... its i cant expect them to...
everyone haf their own life...
but if i;m juz being negative...
its... why so unfair... why can some people i see haf all these while i dun....
does growing up means.. putting everyone and everything away...
career, money, Dog eat Dog world...?
fuk i dun see a place for me here..
i really ahte this place...this world... everything i see... the news i hear...
its all assholes after assholes...shit after shit.. and who suffer the people who lives in it...
its like we'r all tie to this shit hole.. from the beginning..
from kids shielded from all the shit...
as we grow we get so used to it that we dun bother with it no more juz become part of it...
haiz.. i;m juz talking shit here....
it dun make sense...
fuk... yea i look like i;m full of activity...
full of people around me...
but is that all real....
its still abck to the if ur beneficial ur a fren else they wont rememebr u for anything at all...
they only do when u finally says hi to them...
well fuk this world... no matter how i hate being alone...
i still think its the safest most comfy place... i will ever be...
this is juz a pile of crap wall of text..
u juz wasted ur time reading...
doubt that anyone will read which is good.. for i can jzu write wad i feel.. without considering anything....
haiz... sometimes i wonder why....
why this why that... am i that bad?
or is it my personality?
well if anyone detest me... well least ya can do is tell me why....
and well so be it... i wont say i will change... well i dun even noe myself how am i supopose to change?
zz man i;m really talking crap here...
logging...
well if anyone do happen to read this...
well put no heart...
its juz random ranting... senseless ranting...
9:10 AM
Sunday, August 24, 2008
haiz.. been ages since i last post...
well kinda not in a goo mood so gonna rant abit...
honestly speaking this world is hopeless, pathetic, cruel, theres nothing good about it..
even though i noe that may or may not be true..
but alot of time it is juz that...
at the moment, juz feeling angry, sad, disappointed with someone...
someone whom i cant juz throw behind, cant juz abandon, someone i see everyday for the past 19 years..
haiz.. nvm i dun think i wanna write it here....fuk its juz the things that gonna stay with me for the rest of my life and i cant deny that...
sometimes i really hate this world...
feels so comfortable alone.. but so lonely...
dear fren came back, kinda misses her..
wonder hows she doing.. well i noe i haben been smsing ya lately,
but hey ur still my dear fren alrite =) juz been feeling alone.. u noe feeling really comfortable alone... i dunno feeling better? haben really been thinking much although once in a long while still the same...
well i noe ya been working lately, dun overwork yaself okie =)
rememebr when theres anything i;m always here for ya k =)
hope ya read this, really dun wan ya to feel that there are distance among us or any of that..
well ya can always msg me ya =D hmmm well will try to msg ya the next time i see ya okie =D
well hoenstly i dunno to consider my life as miserable now or better...
kinda being a loner..
haiz.. nvm.. juz l;eave it all be... soon lifes gonna change again...
god noes where it head..
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4:37 AM