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+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
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+ 08/10/1989
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Saturday, January 31, 2009
the sudden urge to post.....
in a blink of an eye its February and very soon it'll be March... be4 that it will be the exams and lab test... after that will be enlistment followed by the stress and responsibility of working.
all in all i'll say although my 3 years in poly and my 19 years in life have not really been perfect, but i wouldn;t want it any other way. i've had the privilege of knowing some of the nicest, most amazing to the scumbags of the universe. i got the chance to live life in the high profile and suffer the feeling of the insignificant bottom. Cant say i'm liked by all but i;m neither hated. what have i achieved so far. i will leave that unanswered. or u answer it for me. why do i get the feeling like my life is coming to an imminent end? LOL hopefully not. i got a long way to go, goals to complete. greats things to be done.
enuff with that....
today i went for my defensive riding course. well some might say its a waste of money. but think of it this way... riding with the excuse that its cheaper than car... u already put a low price on ur own life... i little money spend to increase that chance of survivability in an unforseen accident, u call it waste then i guess ur life isn;t worth mentioning or remembering. i;ve seen some people even lowering it further looking for cheapo helmets. Please! riding is for rider who enjoy riding and not because of some lamo cheap excuses. for those who nv ride be4 think first be4 commenting... plus further more are u so that sure that cars are safer? a person can check the road clear on a zebra crossing in a raining day... cross the road and die... from wad u ask? the tree fell on him.... so walking isn;t that safe eh? now let me tell u most accident are cause by human error. people who never think be4 doing things that haf consequences. well u go think about it... i spend some extra time after the course talking to the instructor bout all these issue.
anyway... we learn the theory about road safty wad to expecct and lookout... plus practical.. where we learn about different riding posture... 2 out of 3, the 3rd one is not for normal road. thus not thought. tried and tested our skills in low speed stability, perception. and also braking. experiencing fish tail situation. and front brake emergency brake. its pretty cool. i also learned alot from the instructor when we talk after the course.
anyway went back to haf lunch with my dad, then home...
evening went to meet my dear fren, go watch a play at esplanade..well tell u the truth i didn't noe wad play it was but i juz agree to pei my dear fren go watch. i trust her opinion =) ask her and i;m sure she tell u the same. =P anyway i'm glad i didn;t miss it.. its really good although long. but casted by some famouse actors and actresses from oversea, talk about life and reality using an office politics enviroment, basically i find it touching, well played, really makes u think about some things in life. in english its call design for living. i tink. =P well done.. i always love a good play.. well tell u the truth i like alot of things. so much tat i cant give time for them.. i guess i;m weird....
to my dear fren.. really thank u for jioing me go watch hahaz, it was nice to meet up and catch up with ya, next time go aagin alrite =)
i guess i'll write till here,... actuclly i wanted to talk about more but i guess non of u here actuclly will noe wad i mean with exception to those few u noe who u are.. next time we shld go chill over nice cup of coffee and talk again like abck in my birthday almost a year ago ;)
william
8:45 AM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Happy CNY people!!...
good health and good wealth to all
haven update for a while...
well theres nothing much i guess..
lately aced my WLT labtest..
thats one down and many more to go...
next in the list would be my napfa test!
i got to do well.. or at minimum pass it.
i haf no problem with my pull ups, sit up, and sit and reach..
as for shattle run i dun really noe how well i will do. as i dun haf or haben train it at all..
as for standing board jump..
a person my weight.. and weak legs i cant jumps for nuts.. but i guess passing shld be alrite...
juz kinda regret pushing so hard last week with training that.. i fear i strained my hamstring..
lets hope it gets better..
my main problem will lie with 2.4 i haf been running alot lately.. but how well i'll do is a whole new thing... i really dun noe...
been putting on weight lately...
fuk man.. i;m indulging in food....
might be stress..
stress that i shldn't worry too much about...
well try to get it back in control and lose some for the test.
enuff with that..
today while i was preparing sotong,
one of them be4 i slice them.. i notice there are things in it..
i pull it out it was 2 whole fish..
buy 1 sotong free 2 fish hahaz..
hm,mm i'll write till here for now...
william
11:04 AM
Sunday, January 18, 2009
wahhhhh super guilty.....
Napfa test coming in early feb,
i still overweight...
still weak...
and i allowed myself to overdose/indulge in food and drinks at my grandparent place today!
AARRRGGGHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhh
sianz..... when will i ever become lean... =(
exams are coming...
people work hard alrite!
william
8:26 AM
Sunday, January 11, 2009
"Never miss an opportunity to make others happy, even if you have to leave them alone in order to do it." ~Author Unknown
lately i've been interested in reading books of wisdom from the knowledgeable ones be4 us, compile a list of their words, copy of their books although translated in english. For sure , one will always learn sumtin from them. juz like i did. while reading, ask urself question, understand wad they mean. sometimes you'll find that the things u used to do or believed aint exectly the right thing.
anyway lately, i dunno, juz been feeling very very neutrel. is like ur neither drown in sorrow or flooded with happiness... well i;m sure one day i'll know why things are like that. So many times we want things to work out the way we wanted them to be, even waited so long holding that bit of hope that it might one day juz tilt ur way. however, life has its way to toy with people, alot of times the things u want, u will nv get, the things ya wanna prevent it always happens.
sometimes i think i;m really having problems, i dream weird things, i haf sudden emotional changes, i will suddenly haf adrenaline rush and etc.... and when i say weird dreams i meant really weird ones... one that ordinary people dun haf. so far it has always been violent. its either the hunt or be hunted, or alone surrounded by death... the moment u noe ur a gonna ya wake up in cold sweat, "thank goodness its not real".
well scientifically it could be becoz of things i;m going thru? but i dunno.. even i myself is not sure. lately i get irritated by people, i wanna be left alone, i take silent walk... sometimes even looking at the people around me the people who care about me.. and even doubt them...
but all in all.. things are all under control. i manage to set things aside, do wad i need to do, treat others how i wan others to treat me.
well could it be becoz i doubt myself? well its hard to say... so far every time i pick up courage, grow confidence, it always go down in pieces. so words of advice, nv allow hopes to rise too high... you never noe when the surround thigns will tear it apart.
okie enuff bout those...
a little bit bout wad happen lately....
ytd went to vincents birthday chalet, with my poly click..
it was really really nice to see everyone.
i see everyone is well.. growing up hahaz...
realyl had fun around them..
we even visit OCH...
as in went all the way in to walk..
encounter some unexplained...
but all in all that place is pretty peaceful if ya ask me =)
stayed over that nite, and went back after breakfast this morning.
now i;m super tired...
oh be4 i forget...
CONGRATZ to peishan for passing pract 7, woohoo!!~ one more to go and u can go for TP le...
JIA YOU!! william support ya always... rememeber ride safe alrite.. hahaz hmmm now i kinda miss riding in sch le LOL with ya around.. i rmember last time ur fig 8 and crank course not very good.. the first few time even got hurt and falling down.. hahaz ya noe.. those time while i was waiting for my turn to go.. i was looking out for ya... and seeing ya ddrop bike and fell.. hmmm it juz smack me " omg! is she alrite!" but hahaz now see ya strong!! nothing can stand in ya way de!!... rememebr hurry get ya license.. i go get bike we go ride =D...
be4 i end..
juz a few wise quotes from some famous people that i tot i shld learn and remind myself.
The first and greatest victory is to conquer yourself; to be conquered by yourself is of all things most shameful and vile. ~Plato
“We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope.” —Martin Luther King, Jr.
12:42 AM
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
super duper tired.. omg.. lack slp...
tml going naval base to do declaration.. sianz..
heng got my fren jas to drive! thx so much!!
hahaz... today lecture i barely can keep awake...
manage to survive thru..
then after sch stay behind with the guys do wisp..
i try my best to do as much as i can properly..
but i feel i wrote a chunk of junk LOL
went home....
went to my hong quan class..
finish most of my basic fist form..
advance fist form, dun bother starting.. its not my level..
and i dun wanna waste my time learning and doing like shit.. wads the point of doing a form for show... no standard no strength or stamina.... i'd say.. fuking waste of time... =P
plus i dun wanna hurt myself... dun see doing form like easy...
it takes proper breathing, sounding, steps, strength, proper form and move for each specific moves... if to u, learning martial art is to get a belt and learn a pattern and do them and end up WAHHH LUCKY MAN I PASS.. then i tell u... u will nv succeed.. nor cultivate urself or even use wad u learn at all...learning an art is not about fighting or showing off... i noe my fist can break bones.. thus i shall nv use it unless dire needs...well forget its not like any of u here can understand wad i;m saying.. spending time in basic boring stance, throwing fist at a bag everyday, perfecting everything that u learn... to succed in learning an art.. is to perfect that art..
now i'm learning the most unconventional weapon, the walking sticks. harmless it seems but useful it is... tell u the truth.. i dun evern bother taking test LOL i learn a form i practice the form everyday.. i learn another form.. i practice both... its passion and interest not level..
anyway... super tired now.. legs are shaking by themself...
hmmm nothing muc else to write about i guess...
ooo lately i;ve been compiling wise words in a text file.. i think its rather interesting and meaning full..
heres wad i got so far...
Great leaders inspire greatness in others.
Belief is not a matter of choice, but of conviction.
Easy is the path to wisdom for those not blinded by themself.
A plan is only as good as those who see it through.
The best confidence builder is experience.
Trust in your friends, and they'll have reason to trust in you.
You hold onto friends by keeping your heart a little softer than your head.
Heroes are made by the times.
Ignore your instincts at your peril.
Most powerful is he who controls his own power.
Try not. Do or do not, there is no try.
When 900 years you reach, look as good, you will not.
Who's the more foolish...the fool or the fool who follows him?
The dark is generous, and it is patient, and it always wins--
But in the heart of its strength lies weakness:
One lone candle is enough to hold it back.
Love is more than a candle.
Love can ignite the stars.
There is no emotion; there is peace
There is no ignorance; there is knowledge
There is no passion; there is serenity
There is no death; there is the Force
Death is a natural part of life.
Rejoice for those around you who transform into teh Force.
Mourn them do not, miss them do not.
Learn To Let Go Of Everything You Fear To Lose
Trust your gut, follow your heart.
note the spaces are seperate different wise words..
and well to outsiders who seen this be4.. NO i did not come up with them... i juz jot them down read them.. i find them meaningful. i respect whoeevr who understand and created them..
william
7:41 AM
Monday, January 05, 2009
first day of school after 3 weeks of long holiday, slumber and laziness..
tiring the day has been...
forgetful i am getting...
talking weird i will for the next few moment...
its certain great to see the guys again... as in my classmate and all...
did a few lab.. surprisingly.. i manage to recap or pick up the lost track that i left behind be4 the holiday...
found out my WLT result i haf today...
bad the result was not, but better it could haf been...
work hard i muz...
stayed behind to work on wisp...
put the rite person for the right job one muz...
help understand and lend my hand to deal with the research..
however i have not begin...
also...
my school open a new canteen.. fully aircon...
and omfg.. its as big as a convention centre...
zzz NP.. when ask to spend money stingy they become..
when they wan to spend money.. nv hold back they will...
but wad the heck.. the foods good...
=D
overdosed of eating today hahaz...
anyway.. my surprise.. i met an old fren.. one that kinda sometimes i feel guilty regarding the place he ended up with.. but it aint fully us... its up to him to work hard too...
his family franchise their outlet there as well hahz and his full time..
been dismissed from the sch he had...
i guess thats wad ya get for failing too much.. but i really hope thats wad he wanted..
least his got a future ahead.. do u? i ask myself....
on my way home... i almost forgot i meeting the guys.. as in my old sec sch frens...
for dinner.. thx to felix, he called me juz in time.. hahaz
glad i made my way down.. met alot of old frens today..
some grew big and strong.. some grow wide...
catch up alot.. and most got their license...
wee me too my bike license...
if i took car i could be driving my dad car liao hahaz.. but heng...
CK learn to drive properly leh.. omg road hazard LOL
lucky no damage.. else GG
overheard a news regarding my old fren, my da jie karen...
the one who used to protect me from ben during art class..
omg i really miss those innocent days...
heard that shes married?! omg!! sad nv tell ya didi...=(
but hahaz congratz.. may ya live happily ever after!!! find time hang out too!!
went over her blog.. paiseh haben update her links...
well i noe its been ages since i last contacted her.. so cant blame her if i;m forgotten hahaz..
saw a few post.. OMG jie ya drawing now so zai le!!
i'm so envy!!!
i remember last time ya used to be the one who complaint alot when come to drawing LOL
we used to worry if ya can cope when u went nafa..
but seeing the pictures ya draw there.. i;m amaze =) muz teach me to draw like that!!!
hahaz...
time really flies...
years after years...
days after days...
wait for no one time will...
from the innocent mind teenager and kids with common goal to each of us going the path we choose to walk..
good or bad only time will tell...
soon everyone will be so rooted into their own path that the past is all but dust..
well it might be a good thing.. some things are better left in the dark..
looking at the things now.. i wonder wad my future hold...
honestly i dun hold great hopes for it...
hahaz.. but oh well we'll see i guess...
honestly i dun mind going thru the past again..
those fond memories...
dreaded errors that i made.. and learnt from...
the frens i made along the way and lost with time...
hahaz...
please take good care of yaself to everyone that i got to know of in my life so far!!
love all of u lots..
tml i shall rush my wisp.. once that is settle i shall start compiling my things for the labs...
reminder wed to meet jas in the morning at tenah merah.. going to naval base...
and well if ya reading.. i think if ya continue to read u shld noe who u are...
congratz on winning a few n the captain balls games hahaz...
rest well today.. know that ya in my tots, care and concern =)
sweet dreams...
oh and to my dear fren..
i;m so sry waking ya juz now.. didn;t mean too...
that idiot ck lah.. wan play pool ask me call ya ask if its open..
then i also another stoopid idiot...
nv see watch juz call...
paiseh...
and also.. haben meet ya up a long time le..
i feel bad.. like neglect ya liddat...
noe that ya and jf are in my tots as well =)
please take good care alrite..
from now on.. as time pass.. i guess i'll become harder to meet le..
busy busy...
soon into the navy...
but please dun forget me...
as i wont... we'll still catch up for a drink one day =D and this time i think ima lose to ya le with all ya training back in china!! XD
anyway i;ma go sleep le...
good nitez..
william
10:41 AM
Sunday, January 04, 2009
hey peeps...
super long no update.. i tot i'd update abit since the end of 2008 and the dawn of 2009
well things is... cant say improving neither is it getting worst...
on the most part.. its doing quite well
achieve a couple of things be4 the end of 08
such as getting my bike license...
honestly there are alot of things i wanna say.. but i juz dun noe how to put into words...
well forget it..
no point too...
somethings are juz better left unsaid...
its less trouble too...
happy new year!!
all the best...
8:12 AM