-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

"Never miss an opportunity to make others happy, even if you have to leave them alone in order to do it." ~Author Unknown

lately i've been interested in reading books of wisdom from the knowledgeable ones be4 us, compile a list of their words, copy of their books although translated in english. For sure , one will always learn sumtin from them. juz like i did. while reading, ask urself question, understand wad they mean. sometimes you'll find that the things u used to do or believed aint exectly the right thing.

anyway lately, i dunno, juz been feeling very very neutrel. is like ur neither drown in sorrow or flooded with happiness... well i;m sure one day i'll know why things are like that. So many times we want things to work out the way we wanted them to be, even waited so long holding that bit of hope that it might one day juz tilt ur way. however, life has its way to toy with people, alot of times the things u want, u will nv get, the things ya wanna prevent it always happens.

sometimes i think i;m really having problems, i dream weird things, i haf sudden emotional changes, i will suddenly haf adrenaline rush and etc.... and when i say weird dreams i meant really weird ones... one that ordinary people dun haf. so far it has always been violent. its either the hunt or be hunted, or alone surrounded by death... the moment u noe ur a gonna ya wake up in cold sweat, "thank goodness its not real".

well scientifically it could be becoz of things i;m going thru? but i dunno.. even i myself is not sure. lately i get irritated by people, i wanna be left alone, i take silent walk... sometimes even looking at the people around me the people who care about me.. and even doubt them...

but all in all.. things are all under control. i manage to set things aside, do wad i need to do, treat others how i wan others to treat me.

well could it be becoz i doubt myself? well its hard to say... so far every time i pick up courage, grow confidence, it always go down in pieces. so words of advice, nv allow hopes to rise too high... you never noe when the surround thigns will tear it apart.

okie enuff bout those...

a little bit bout wad happen lately....
ytd went to vincents birthday chalet, with my poly click..
it was really really nice to see everyone.
i see everyone is well.. growing up hahaz...
realyl had fun around them..
we even visit OCH...
as in went all the way in to walk..
encounter some unexplained...
but all in all that place is pretty peaceful if ya ask me =)

stayed over that nite, and went back after breakfast this morning.
now i;m super tired...

oh be4 i forget...

CONGRATZ to peishan for passing pract 7, woohoo!!~ one more to go and u can go for TP le...
JIA YOU!! william support ya always... rememeber ride safe alrite.. hahaz hmmm now i kinda miss riding in sch le LOL with ya around.. i rmember last time ur fig 8 and crank course not very good.. the first few time even got hurt and falling down.. hahaz ya noe.. those time while i was waiting for my turn to go.. i was looking out for ya... and seeing ya ddrop bike and fell.. hmmm it juz smack me " omg! is she alrite!" but hahaz now see ya strong!! nothing can stand in ya way de!!... rememebr hurry get ya license.. i go get bike we go ride =D...

be4 i end..
juz a few wise quotes from some famous people that i tot i shld learn and remind myself.

The first and greatest victory is to conquer yourself; to be conquered by yourself is of all things most shameful and vile. ~Plato

“We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope.” —Martin Luther King, Jr.

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