This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
+ zazooosg@hotmail.com
+ 08/10/1989
+ Libra
Saturday, March 21, 2009
first update after enlistment... technically, i'm not in bmt yet... i'm not strong enough, not fit enough, so i ended up in the PTP phase. objective is to bring myself to a whole new level to be ready for everything that comes at me.
the main thing i feel regarding life in the regiment, is first to change the mindset, it may sound corny to tell urself that after taking the oath and shaving the head, ur on ur way to be a soldier. but it is true. the faster u accept that fact the faster u adapt the faster u perform the faster it progress.
many people go in thinking, how can they slack, how can they relax. but guess life is not like that. its alot more different that wad they say outside. as for me its gonna be my career, i'm gonna give it my best. i faced difficulty, i got to learn to overcome it.
personally i'll advice my friends who yet to enter the army, please go train urself physically,mentally. when they say dun worry, the army will train u, i agree on that but trust me it will be a hell lot easier if u start early be4 u enter. else u'll probably be in a whole of pain... also try to find things to motivate urself to get thru things. NEVER give up, regardless its physical training, or life inside. juz have to suck it up take it like a man, Tough man... coz if u give up, things probably will get and feel alot worst. when u try ur best, not only u will gain, become stronger, u'll feel life slowly gets easier.
in short, life in the navy is not what they say, easy and slack, it is on;y that way only when u learn and ways and strong enuff.
regimental life is very very very simple, but not and never will be easy. everything is step by step, routine, but never try to compromise the rules or pay the price.
some may like it some may not. but grow some pride, ask urself, u got 80 years to live, how much do u wanna achieve in the 80 years.
so far, i've been in there doing alot alot of physical training, twice a day everyday. train till it ache, and continue till it stop aching. u'll feel urself getting stronger by the day. food wise is considerbly good, welfare is never better. and getting fucked is almost certain everyday. a few things i learn so far, proper warm up, exercise, drills, and alot of standard things. some principles that i learned "HIT" (Honor, Integrity, Teamwork) a few motivational phrase to push myself on, " Tough time dun last, Tough man do", "Mind over body", "There is no "I" in SEALs", "Good Deal For Good SEALs". even though we'r not divers or commandos or even the navy seals, all this are priciples that is true. integrity, when u screw up u pay the price, accept it and move on, every action has a consequences, u do good u earn the priviledge, u screw up ur reward is pain. so guys and gals, all i can say is suck it up.
so far 10 days, i went from a chao recruit to a maggot, up to a division IC and now a Company IC, i screwed up a number of time. but kept in mind the ABC, no Argue, no Bargain, no Complaint. adapting at first wasn;t easy, but as time pass the fast u accept the reality the better u will get. and advice to u lot, my staff-sergent tell us, assumption is mother of all fuck up. so never assume. in a few hours time, its time to revert myself back to a soldiers mindset, and tackle the next 6 days.
message to add, i really dislike Rounds(aka standby bed/bunk/area) got to learn attention to details. looking forward to BMT in 3 weeks time, and POP in 2 months 3 weeks. wish me all the best.
short term goal: IPPT SILVER, followed by gold.
william
10:41 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
this probably my last post in a long long time.
few more hours to enlistment, i noe wad ur thinking... "wad the hell am i still awake for at 3.30"
anyway, went to do some last min purchase, and back home, today met my poly click, though not everyone came, and well spend alot of the time rotting. but still, i did enjoy dinner very much. take care ya all!
the past few days been doing alot of meetup and gathering, well i noe, its not the end of the world when it comes to enlistment. its juz i dun like endings, ending one chapter of ur life normally means losing a few people along the way. and i dun noe when i'll meet them again, some wont even get to meet for a long time. i treasure my frens and even if they forgot me, i'll always remember them.
did many insane things and had hell of a good time, fun, surprises, etc etc... catch all of ya up when i'm out.
to my dear fren, well even though we dun noe each other for super duper long time, but we click like we know each other for a lifetime. take good care, and all the best for ur future, be it study or work. remember ur dear fren here "a fren at all times"(i think u shld noe where this line comes from) and also "anytime anywhere" hahaz, those times juz kinda came to me suddenly. =D
hahaz justin, felix and ck, i noe ur NS time not yet here, but hahaz it will come one day! and i'll be waiting lol enjoy ur holidays while u can. take care ya!
12:23 PM
Sunday, March 08, 2009
wooohoooo..... juz came home from an exciting nite... today suppose to meet my dear fren be4 i enlist, hahaz allocated a day for her, to my surprise she organized a group.. thx thx =) tell u the truth i was really surprise, i really tot justin and felix happen to came by. till the 3nd time justin said "surprise!" we went to iguana i think.. not sure the name. its the 2nd time i been there, talking bout that.. OMG had the hottest chilli in my whole life.. there was the Tabasco(no kick), the hot sauce(dunno wad sauce is that but quite hot) and there was the EXTRA hot sauce(this one is killer!) we also had flavored margarita. eat slack and talk =) then after that me, justin, felix and ck we went to eski. i met my fren dex, long time since i been there, its sad but it seems that seri left. we'll contact her one day =) after that we wanted to eat so we decide go simpang bedok. kinda got lost ended up driving towards taus. did alot of stunt... then exit out queensway and back on track on the ecp. lol justin is one safe yet insane driver! LOL turning here and there, once even swaying from the first lane to the last lane while in the expressway. then also letting the car roll back down while waiting for the traffic light. hahaz it was one hell of a ride. when nearing simpang, justin let me drive in one of those empty carpark. well i did a pretty good job =D wahhhh now i wanna drive!! i wan car license... damn! if i took it last time i would haf got it and drive my dads car. oh well next time.
anyway today was really great, really thx, i;m definately gonna miss you all while i get confine inside. never tot this day would come so fast. all the best for ur results alrite! lets catch up again, this time me without my hair.
anyway a few days be4 today, i also meet up with the group go chill, at e hub, justin treat me japanese food, eat until damn full, slack around play the arcade, waiting for justin to return. taking alot alot of pictures too.. but justin came back damn late, so we ended up heading over ck's place first, taking even more pictures along the way. its on friendster if ur interested. there we drink to our hearts content, and play rock band and watch shows, had lotsa fun, its been a long while since i drink till so seh... next day rot till evening be4 heading home for my grandma's birthday. had another feast =)
i guess thats about it all for now. today i also packed my room. damn empty now..
to my dear fren, gonna miss ya, we'll definately catch up up once i'm out. all the best for ur results! take care u all!... justin drive safe! ck intro me that astrologist! felix! i still haben seen ur gf lol... wish me all the best... hope i never make a mistake commiting to the navy hahaz..
12:08 PM
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
another sleepless nite... well things are improving. but still kinda having difficulty sleeping..
anyway.. went singing with qianhui and frens enjoyed myself pretty much, though kinda not much mood to sing, hahaz i sing like crap today. but still had fun =) thank u all. reminder to self tml remember to call TMS to update my particulars and ask about my last sem result and whether or not i need to submit them since my enlistment is be4 result release. anyway came across a music video by 3 doors down, made for the US national guard. kinda find it nice though. the song is base on the things the national guard do. from my knowledge the national guard is the ones who protect on the soil of their own country. they response to natural disaster and such. to me, anyone willingly putting their life on the line to protect their believes and their dear ones deserve some respect. even more, helping those in need. anyway heres the video
and here are the lyrics,
3 Doors Down Citizen Soldier lyrics Beyond the boundaries of your city's lights, Stand the heroes waiting for your cries. So many times you did not bring this on yourself, When that moment finally comes, I'll be there to help.
On that day when you need your brothers and sisters to care, I'll be right here. Citizen soldiers holding the light for the ones that we guide from the dark of despair. Standing on guard for the ones that we sheltered, We'll always be ready because we will always be there.
When there are people crying in the streets, When they're starving for a meal to eat, When they simply need a place to make their beds, Right here underneath my wing, You can rest your head.
On that day when you need your brothers and sisters to care, I'll be right here! Citizen soldiers holding the light for the ones that we guide from the dark of despair. Standing on guard for the ones that we sheltered, We'll always be ready because we will always be there...
There... there... there...
Hope and pray that you'll never need me, But rest assured I will not let you down. I'll walk beside you but you may not see me, The strongest among you may not wear a crown.
On that day when you need your brothers and sisters to care, I'll be right here! On that day when you don't have the strength for the burden you bear, I'll be right here! Citizen soldiers holding the light for the ones that we guide from the dark of despair. (Citizen soldiers) Standing on guard for the ones that we sheltered, We'll always be ready because we will always be there.
1:24 PM
Sunday, March 01, 2009
3 in the morning, and i cant get to slp... well i'm kinda losing alot of slp lately... and well i dun intend to go back to my old ways of going to slp... feels kinda like alot of things on my mind... but i can lock on to any of it. its like a mess inside but then i cant seem to find the source of each lol weird.. maybe juz a little messed up inside.. too many things inside, but cant think, sad to say wad i tot would be the happiest moment in my 2009 soon become possibly another sad one. i nv could take ending easily. but thru experience i noe i can definately get over it. i'm the sort who dun take anything feelings lightly, but everytime feelings always takes me lightly. i guess its juz how things is. juz feel a little sad, but it'll be over in no time.. but oh well its a 2 person thing, and theres no way to force things thru rite =) so if it gotta happen it will happen. hahaz maybe i;m the sort who thinks too much =P anyway. 1 more week to go. more like 11 days. this week i juz wanna hang out with all my frens and family. if possible everyone close to me. after some thinking. some of them i dun even noe when will it gonna be to meet them again in the future.. the truth about things is juz cruel. as time pass people ur close with juz leaves u one by one. only some stand by u.
anyway.. kinda thinking wad to do... sg is so god damn small that theres like not much to do. do this and some of them dun like do that and the others dun like.. well as long as we meet up be4 i go in i'll be happy. suddenly feel like asking my dear fren go dinner and dessert LOL well she influenced me to eat dessert hahaz, and i influenced her to drink. well now shes holds her alcohol alot better than i do =P anyway guys and gals.. lets meet up be4 i go alrite. in case we dun get to see each other again in the future. lets make this a memorable one.