-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.
Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
+ zazooosg@hotmail.com
+ 08/10/1989
+ Libra
Thursday, April 29, 2010
i am trying to keep my mind thinking straight, trying not to think too much, focus on my work and all. or simply put try to be positive. hmmm i think i really need spend some time to sort out my tots and priority. maybe i shld simply just keep to myself and just watch the world goes by and not get affected by it. i'm a social person, i dun really like to be left out and alone. but reality is the latter. wads the point of me trying to talk to people when they dun even bother to reply? well i guess i'm thinking too much again. maybe they are busy with their own things. i shldn't burden my frens to entertain me or company me. coz in life its a fact that u will lose everyone around u sooner or later and accept the fate of being alone. whether in the later part of ur life or in a coffin. i'm very disappointed with myself ytd. did another test and i misunderstand how to do certain things. if others could do it i feel like a failure when i cant. i shld have prepare harder maybe? i got to pull myself tgt, no matter how much i like or dun like this job. i may be better at other job but since i'm here i guess i shld give it my best? well but wad is giving it my best when i hardly am the best? irony.
i'm just a weirdo stuck among people who dun know or understand or maybe even appreciates me. gone are the days where i'm surrounded by frens who actuclly feels like they know ya. here everything is about themself and each other. dun deny it. i've been doing sould searching for a long time now, trying to understand things, understand myself my existence. i still am.. i feel like there are unanswered questions in my that i dun even noe the questions to begin with. feel like an empty shell, discarded and unwanted? i dunno.. theres this feeling in me that driving me mad. but i cant put it to words.
gtg for work.
william
4:30 PM
