-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.

Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.

Sunday, May 02, 2010

if thoughts and feelings could have a meter, mine would be fluctuating end to end.
woke up today, first thing i did was to set my day telling myself i shall for once be very very positive. i did house work, a bit of study, exercise and all...

somehow its quite hard to maintain leh. worst when u seeing people around ya emoing.
jills emoing, probably quarrel with bf or wad, my other frens also liddat. work lah, frens lah, or even jus pissed off the world is like that. all kinds of things. so okie i maintain my stand, i go around trying to just give positive remarks when needed. somehow the enviroment always gets ya. ya minds start to run and next thing u noe, ur back to square one. oh well least physically i'm okie. least the world wont notice. people dun really give a shit, they only act like they do. then behind ya they'll just say things. so wadever it is ur happy or unhappy the only true person that noes wad ur feeling and u dun have to say a word is ur self. people tell me if i keep bottling up i'll get depression. who knows maybe i already am. but i surpassed it? people are only depress if they feel that way, act that way and the whole world see them that way. cant u have a person feeling depress but yet becoz he understand his place and responsibility he maintain himself least on the outside?

well i'll continue to be positive, or just keeping trying.
i see things around me, made me think alot and feel alot.
i see things or people, i ask myself why am i not the one having them but watching other people have them? hahaz such questions will only kill u in the end.
but cant help it. alot of time i feel like i'm not meant to be here. maybe my past live i did sumtin wrong and i'm here to go thru feeling like crap? haha..

oh well like i always tell people. life goes on no matter wad.
william! william... dun think so much... i really hope those who say they understands me and wad i'm thinking or going thru, hope they really do. why do i still feel alone?

william

8:47 AM