-i'm.SO.miss-understood. -shikayeproductions.
Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
+ zazooosg@hotmail.com
+ 08/10/1989
+ Libra
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
u noe i honestly nv tot i'd be back here again.
well least here its my private space. i doubt anyone out there can find me here.
no one i noe, noes how to. well i do up these searches and trace about them, monitor when they left an opening for me to see. well some might call me a stalker. but all in all i;m not.
i shld stop flooding wad i think and feel in facebook or to my frens, even frens who understood me. we used to talk everything under the sun anytime. but now, i guess last time was just becoz i was down. and she as a fren wanted to help me up and now i sort of mess it up thanks to me putting feelings into her goodwill. oh well i shall cut it. as i did be4, such things aint meant for me. i just hope things can become back to last time. now hardly can talk, she also dun wanna tell me things anymore. who to blame? me! i overreact, i mess up and fuck up alot. and people just get tired of me.
so i from now on i shall just focus on wads important and fuck the rest. the world dun need to noe if i wanna die tml. which of coz i wont. such things only i noe myself well.
works not going well, but i;m trying. learning things that i almost got no back ground in. sucks...
sometimes i just wanna be alone, even though i hate it. now a days i find it hard to trust people. i look at them, their smile, the things they say another part of me is always arguing that its not real.
well i shall just confine all my feelings and tots here and not let it flow out to anyone.
anyway theres no one. i got fren who everytime we talk sure got logic about r/s. i;m trying to learn pass it but ur adding more salt to the already cut wound.
i got my best bro busy with work, call me to tell me a few things, and when i wanna tell him things he needa slp. he always tells me one day we'll meet but till now we hardly. cant blame him... work is work. his still my brother.
basically theres close to no one to talk to, to express my feeling good and bad. my tots. people dun understand me. they think they do but they dun... and they are makin me very stress and confuse. wad am i doing am i doing it right or wrong. they dun wanna explain to me. well i;m just gonna do wad i think i shld do.. if u dun like it i dun give a fuck. i;m here to do my job and i will get it done. i wanna become an officer.. and no fucks gonna stop me. ima proof i got wad it takes. leadership... who say an emo or a psychopath can be a good leader. leadership is groom not born.
i just wan work to go well, i wan frens. and i wan my head to be clear... i hear myself telling me things. is that normal? lol maybe its just wad they always tell me.. thinking too much...
i'm pretty happy today bout TP and dinner.
ima try slp...
from today on i will write wad i feel here.
i will not mood swing, or overreact in front of people. i will swallow even if its against me. bite the bullet and smile. telling myself its all gonna be well.
william.
wish me luck.
8:36 AM